ooooh soooo freaked ouuuuuut
Nov. 19th, 2002 10:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplasstomorrow.... will suck.... I am just knowing it will
The last 2 days I've missed 3 quizzes, not terrible at all! Especially since 2 were vocab and one was a reading quiz, English stuff sort of freaks me, but Ms. Tallman smiled at me twice! She no longer scowls... so I figure that is sort of ok.. right? Nevertheless I don't dread her to much. Latin doesn't freak me in the least, especially vocab.. I will get that done sometime but hopefully before I and the Zoch forget... but yeah... vocab = piece of cake
Tomorrow is a more daunting task, I hate coming in from illness and then missing more school work that day... like, I know I have a Physics test.. yikes... I haven't even thought about that subject for 6-7 days now... I don't know if we learned anything friday/monday so I'm sort of freaked whether I will be forced into that test. I know I have a Morality reading quiz... but the more I think about that, the less I worry as it is a) open book & b) to be done w/ a partner soooooo all I have to do is read, no? wait a second.... is that the book that's in my locker?? I think it might be.... geez that would suck/sucks! And do I remember whisperings of a PRE-CALCULUS TEST! This would only be ANOTHER test for me to skip.... and I NEED a good test grade... I NEED it...... I got an 83 on the first one and a 60 or 65 (dont know if I got those points) on the last one.... so lemme see... thats like.... a 74 test average so far!! yay me..... i sucketh a great deal... so yeah.... if get a 96, I can pull that test average up to a NIFTY 81.... wow... my chances sure suck so far.... this isn't encouraging... pre-cal is murdering me... and I have no idea what to do.... its this stupid trionometry and ms. ashmores stupid flippant way of teaching it..... she has like... ADD on what she's teaching... one minute focused on this... but 3 seconds later we're on to something COMPLETELY different....... blah..... blah blah
oh did I mention?? its retreat after school! so yes.... I have to pack! yay..... grrrr....... st. agnes is being SO mean these days..... I've gotten sick twice in this quarter alone and used up about half of my sick days just because fucking SAA won't give us ANY breaks whatsoever and our teachers WHO KNOW THIS won't give us any breaks either... I want to scream! I have to go to retreat tomorrow because there is no way for me to make it up.... no way at all.... this year's retreat better be SO much better than the last two which were so BRILLIANTLY planned.... the top 3 things I remember from the last 2 retreats: sitting on many filthy disgusting floors, being stuck with people I couldn't stand 95% of the time, and being feeling really embarressed/uncomfortable. I remember NOTHING of feeling closer to my classmates, NOTHING about spirtual enlightenment, NOTHING of internal self-building, NOTHING that would ever help me in the long run. I remember some stupid girl asking us about our "relationships with our boyfriends" and then going seriously in depth about how "she wants her kisses to mean something to her boyfriend" this was a retreat leader SUPRISINGLY not one of my classmates.... OH and NOT TO FORGET "no bling bling till the ring ring" mr. youth minister was he? that went on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about how great......... SEX WAS..... "its so great" "you'll love it" "its the best feeling in the world" nothing more fantastic about sex... etc etc etc etc etc.......... "but don't do it till your married"....... WOW MISTER .... YOUR SPEECH REMINDS ME OF THE DARE PROGRAM: sitting in DARE for x-amount of years didn't make me not want to do drugs, it made me want to spite officer key and officer beverage, yes those were their names, for making me sit through the torture.... for underestimating my intelligence, for treating me like a moron... I mean... the way they went on about drugs made using drugs sound interesting! and fun!! yupp... sick isn't?? but true... isn't it funny how they have PROVED that DARE doesnt work yet they STILL use tax dollars on it?? OH.... and wasn't it an ingenious use of tax dollars with the GREAT program (gang resistance education and training <--- the one thing I remember, seriously) in a TOTALLY suburban area a decent drive from anything considered "shady" at a school with ONE black kid, his dad was a dentist and his mom was a lawyer...... to FOURTH GRADERS! yup.... yup yup.... I know this is a tangent and frankly I have no idea how I got here... but well..... ok.... I am really confused... oh yeah.. the guy going on about sex.... hahaha..... but basically, shouldn't people understand how stuff works, you talk enough about something, people want in on it ex. the media "buy this buy this buy this buy this" "hey! I think I'll buy that"... however.... if you make the message really loud and really strong once, people remember that.... but in the long run.... I don't think mr. mc-doofus had enough time to tell us that have premarital sex was bad... I mean we are growing up in a time where sex is practically non-taboo and its everywhere.... sooooooooooo anyway
to sum things up: its gonna have to be one helluva a retreat, course that's hard as the focus is god and the god topic never captures my focus for more than 3 minutes....
sooooooo.... im coming to school tomorrow and im really freaked out.... eeeeeeeeek.. time to pack x_X
The last 2 days I've missed 3 quizzes, not terrible at all! Especially since 2 were vocab and one was a reading quiz, English stuff sort of freaks me, but Ms. Tallman smiled at me twice! She no longer scowls... so I figure that is sort of ok.. right? Nevertheless I don't dread her to much. Latin doesn't freak me in the least, especially vocab.. I will get that done sometime but hopefully before I and the Zoch forget... but yeah... vocab = piece of cake
Tomorrow is a more daunting task, I hate coming in from illness and then missing more school work that day... like, I know I have a Physics test.. yikes... I haven't even thought about that subject for 6-7 days now... I don't know if we learned anything friday/monday so I'm sort of freaked whether I will be forced into that test. I know I have a Morality reading quiz... but the more I think about that, the less I worry as it is a) open book & b) to be done w/ a partner soooooo all I have to do is read, no? wait a second.... is that the book that's in my locker?? I think it might be.... geez that would suck/sucks! And do I remember whisperings of a PRE-CALCULUS TEST! This would only be ANOTHER test for me to skip.... and I NEED a good test grade... I NEED it...... I got an 83 on the first one and a 60 or 65 (dont know if I got those points) on the last one.... so lemme see... thats like.... a 74 test average so far!! yay me..... i sucketh a great deal... so yeah.... if get a 96, I can pull that test average up to a NIFTY 81.... wow... my chances sure suck so far.... this isn't encouraging... pre-cal is murdering me... and I have no idea what to do.... its this stupid trionometry and ms. ashmores stupid flippant way of teaching it..... she has like... ADD on what she's teaching... one minute focused on this... but 3 seconds later we're on to something COMPLETELY different....... blah..... blah blah
oh did I mention?? its retreat after school! so yes.... I have to pack! yay..... grrrr....... st. agnes is being SO mean these days..... I've gotten sick twice in this quarter alone and used up about half of my sick days just because fucking SAA won't give us ANY breaks whatsoever and our teachers WHO KNOW THIS won't give us any breaks either... I want to scream! I have to go to retreat tomorrow because there is no way for me to make it up.... no way at all.... this year's retreat better be SO much better than the last two which were so BRILLIANTLY planned.... the top 3 things I remember from the last 2 retreats: sitting on many filthy disgusting floors, being stuck with people I couldn't stand 95% of the time, and being feeling really embarressed/uncomfortable. I remember NOTHING of feeling closer to my classmates, NOTHING about spirtual enlightenment, NOTHING of internal self-building, NOTHING that would ever help me in the long run. I remember some stupid girl asking us about our "relationships with our boyfriends" and then going seriously in depth about how "she wants her kisses to mean something to her boyfriend" this was a retreat leader SUPRISINGLY not one of my classmates.... OH and NOT TO FORGET "no bling bling till the ring ring" mr. youth minister was he? that went on and on and on and on and on and on and on and on about how great......... SEX WAS..... "its so great" "you'll love it" "its the best feeling in the world" nothing more fantastic about sex... etc etc etc etc etc.......... "but don't do it till your married"....... WOW MISTER .... YOUR SPEECH REMINDS ME OF THE DARE PROGRAM: sitting in DARE for x-amount of years didn't make me not want to do drugs, it made me want to spite officer key and officer beverage, yes those were their names, for making me sit through the torture.... for underestimating my intelligence, for treating me like a moron... I mean... the way they went on about drugs made using drugs sound interesting! and fun!! yupp... sick isn't?? but true... isn't it funny how they have PROVED that DARE doesnt work yet they STILL use tax dollars on it?? OH.... and wasn't it an ingenious use of tax dollars with the GREAT program (gang resistance education and training <--- the one thing I remember, seriously) in a TOTALLY suburban area a decent drive from anything considered "shady" at a school with ONE black kid, his dad was a dentist and his mom was a lawyer...... to FOURTH GRADERS! yup.... yup yup.... I know this is a tangent and frankly I have no idea how I got here... but well..... ok.... I am really confused... oh yeah.. the guy going on about sex.... hahaha..... but basically, shouldn't people understand how stuff works, you talk enough about something, people want in on it ex. the media "buy this buy this buy this buy this" "hey! I think I'll buy that"... however.... if you make the message really loud and really strong once, people remember that.... but in the long run.... I don't think mr. mc-doofus had enough time to tell us that have premarital sex was bad... I mean we are growing up in a time where sex is practically non-taboo and its everywhere.... sooooooooooo anyway
to sum things up: its gonna have to be one helluva a retreat, course that's hard as the focus is god and the god topic never captures my focus for more than 3 minutes....
sooooooo.... im coming to school tomorrow and im really freaked out.... eeeeeeeeek.. time to pack x_X
