identity crisis

[transomwhiplass]

"Which is why I don't know what to do with myself. I can't stop thinking about him, wanting to care for him and be there for him. Why did it all have to happen when I was trying to figure out who I was? I had to try to figure out someone else, other than myself, as well. Maybe that could be a little definition of why I was so messed up. At any rate.. I feel like a hypocrite. Suddenly, I can't stop listening to those songs, that artist, that style.. everything I used to hate, I'm so interested in now. I used to not like him."

lol.... i found that in some community that I don't have any idea how I joined. Isn't that weird?? So yeah... as I was scrolling through trying to find something to remind me or give me insight on how I joined and I found that.. which is so strange because it totally describes the identity crisis I had early sophomore year....

its an interesting thought to get brought up as it has occured to me in the last several days I'm over it... I don't know if I can ever *totally* be over it... I never got that *closure* but I've at least put it to the side for now.... my focus has turn officially turned elsewhere... it has been but not officially..... so thats nice....

i just liked how that quote summed it up so cleanly...