you can't say that I didn't try.

[transomwhiplass]

I'm not sure if Steph read my apology before she called me a hypocrite.. I'm really confused. I have a lot of work to do today and she is still giving me a cold shoulder... I mean.. she is having a bad day too. I already apologized, and I am really sorry.

What was this arguement about? It was about how I felt... who has that right to tell me how I am feeling. Its like.. a sibling dies and someone says "no you aren't sad.. you are happy" thats not really what its like.. but sort of linked.. I don't know what more Steph wants from me: I apologized for attacking her, I apologized for accusing her of things, I apologized for being over-dramatic to her, I apologized for being stressed, I apologized for things I didn't have to and she is still angry. I don't know what I have to do in order for her to release her grudge.

I just have a few questions, just for like.. gathering information's sake... I mean... I don't notice things about myself so this is just so I know. I'd like answers.. these aren't rhetorical. I want to know what I need to change about myself:

how many times have I talked about being stressed?
how often do I do my homework at lunch?
how much do I actually talk about myself?
how many times have I brushed people off?
did i refuse to help you when you asked me to?

i may add some later but the bell rang

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[peter00.livejournal.com]

...i wrote this last night, but it got eaten.

youo've made your decision by now...
you'll never get out of the type of repeating pattern you're in. apologize profusely..and is everything ok? no. what do you think? if you're anything like me, you're gonna be resentful as hell because not a damn thing worked out for you; you didn't get the type of change you wanted from friends...you aren't gonna be happy like this, and i think you know it.

don't let people step all over you.

[yeli.livejournal.com]

I ate your entry, Peter. Sorry.

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[peter00.livejournal.com]

you ate it??? why would you do something like that? huh??? huh???!(sobs)