my decision, made in the car.

[transomwhiplass]

I'm really sorry everyone. Seriously, just forget it all. I'm so sorry Steph, I shouldn't have accused you of anything.. you did nothing wrong.. you tried to care.. but yeah I was stressed out. Its my fault, I'm sorry.... I'm sorry for everything. I've been really stressed out.. I keep it to myself and ignore it, but it got out and it caused me to attack people. I'm sorry, I'm so stupid, I'm wrong. Don't ever listen to me when I'm like this... its all just my messed up mind taking advantage of me. Steph and Mary are right.. its my fault that I am so submissive.. I shouldn't blame anyone else, I can't thrash out at friends for something instilled in my character. I really try to cut myself off from the world, I see that.. I guess I have gotten really consumed with myself and my work.. I have forgotten about everyone else... I don't know what has gotten into me.. I'm so stupid and self-centered. I totally forgot what was important... I'm so sorry. I will never ever do it again, just.. please forgive me for what I've started. I'm so consumed with stress... I can't even think straight.. I was ranting under the influence.. just please forget all of this. I'll see everyone at school tomorrow.

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[superspazmizu.livejournal.com]

But dude... i totally understand you.

[sammehtosh.livejournal.com]

wow.. I'm so glad! its nice to be understood :). A lot of people think they do.. I guess I'm pretty trasparent anyway, its not really hard to get through to me is it?? I mean once you crack my game: I'm basically a person who is happy most of the time.. the rest of the time when I'm not.. its all stress, yup, nothing else.. it causes me to freak out and I have a fit.. but none of it is genuine anger at anyone. I'm pretty simple. Its so great that you think you understand me.. yeah.. comforting.