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[transomwhiplass]

WHEE! The fued continues... well.. I guess it was destined to happen. I'm pretty sick of this "she said, but she said" thing already. I really never noticed how much Steph can warp the truth.. she has the uncanny ability to pull things out of context. I could say more.. but I really don't want this to blow up. I'm sorry that I seem so overdramatic Steph, I'm sorry that's how I act. I usually keep most of my stress to myself.. I try to not bother anyone with it, meanwhile trying consol everyone else with stress. I try not to bother people with my problems.. sometimes they seem to leak out.. and well, something like this happens, and it reminds me why I keep all my pain to myself.

But you are probably right.. I'm not a saint or anything like that, I am not perfect going from person to person helping them with theri woes but I try to be around to help people. You see me acting like a damsel in distress, no? I did not say that no one tries to help me at all, I don't think I am over-dramatic but when I am its because it is such a struggle to get the smallest bit of attention. It takes an "episode" to get an "are you ok"? I really don't want it to be like this.. I don't want to blame anyone, I don't want to blame you. I'm sorry for a lot of stuff, I think people know that.

Anyway, so, sorry everyone. Sorry, Steph.. I have problems... geez, like I said.. I'm not perfect... I think I will quote you one last time, "so sue me!" I will remember to NEVER bother your sacred way of living again... I'm sorry that I studied 2 days in a row this week.... that just happened.... you will understand when you get to trigonometry. But yeah... so I don't know how you want to retort, but I said I was sorry already.

So thank you Peter for offering your support, it was really kind of you. Thank you Niki (though she won't read this) for trying to help me even though she didn't know how. Thank you Mizu, for taking kick-ass notes for me, I will need those.

School's gonna suck tomorrow.I've been worrying about this whole "thing" a lot today.. I don't know what tomorrow is going to be like. I think ironically I will be in the library, or elsewhere, for the sake of work.. but I think it might be better off for other reasons as well.

Comments

[peter00.livejournal.com]

"I really never noticed how much Steph can warp the truth"

I don't know in what context you meant this, but this is my greatest problem with her.
And I don't know what your problems about stress are about, but remember: Sleep! seriously, when the going gets tough, i go to bed.(its funny though).
oh, is this about trigonometry? hmm, if you want, i can help you. ive had...3 years of trig(not at once...but ive known it existed for 3 years). i can help you out if you want.

oh, if this is the first time you've delt with trig, it should get easier once you get the hang of it. so don't worry too much about it.

[sammehtosh.livejournal.com]

lol.. I edited the post right as you were commenting I guess. I understand some of your problems now, though. A lot of what she said that I said.. wasn't right.

I didn't specifically say "No one goes out of thier way for me" I said that "its sad when no one tries to just step off their way for a short period of time." those are similar, but not the same. "No one goes out of thier way for me" makes it sound like I'm having a hissy fit.. and it implies 'ever' , people do try, like Niki, and I TOTALLY acknowledge that.... it was aimed at her really.. and I don't want anyone to go out of their way.. I would just like it, if someone could pause and ask me if I'm ok.... thats it... no bending over backwards, as she implies.

"And we're off in our own universe? You spend more time at lunch doing your homework than you do talking to us... so don't say we're off in our own universe. At least we're there together." I worked at lunch.. FOR 2 DAYS.... my gosh.. I have commit a terrible wrong against her person, the amount of time she spends around her computer or throwing food or whatever totally towers over the 2 instances.. OH WAIT.. 1.. yesterday I was gone in the first 5 minutes.. like.. in a month. Even when I am doing homework, I still talk, all the time.. I always look up and participate in whatever is going on. When that guy Ash came.. they hovered around one computer and one half of the table, while I tried to talk to alex who was talking to greg.... yeah... that was a FUN lunch. She really has no case against me... that was ONE DAY.. monday when I was studying at lunch.. then the 5 minutes of Tuesday.. 1.005 times I study at lunch and SUDDENLY.. its all the time... ugh... I'm going to stop before this gets ugly... I have work to do