My day..

[transomwhiplass]

Wow.. today was a pretty crapish day with one huge exception ^_~.. one thing to describe it.. Latin was the best period of the day *DA DA DAAA* .. frightning.. I know.. but I was able to translate a sentence during annoucements and volunteer it before all the others.. luckily.. i was right and so I didn't get a weird look from Mr. Zoch.. and.. he did compliment my glasses and for the rest of the period we went over prefixes and suffixes .. E-A-S-Y .. anyway.. so I am going to Algebra and we do some stuff and then she pulls out our tests, we all got to see our grades.. I finished the test really early on friday and that worried me.. so I spent the time checking it over making sure I got everything right.. if I remember right, everything checked so I was expected a high A.. so I was stunned to see the bright red "85" on the top.. yes I know.. don't swat me.. people all day have been laughing at me, gotten angry with me, or thought I was a nutcase because of this.. its just.. it was my first B on an algebra test this year.. and last work.. I got my first C ever this year, luckily just on homework.. but this quarter is worrying me and I wish I never made high honor roll at least untill senior year just because there is no where to go but down.. chemistry ended up being almost as bad.. a 5-question pre-lab quiz with questions not even in the book.. I was almost ill.. so the day passed to Mr. Filardo, where, last night, I spent 2 hours moaping in self-pity because of my procrastination considering changing my topic only to end up splitting up my quotes and almost getting late to school because I cut & glued them in the car..., only to find that "he trusted that we did it" T_T .... lunch well.. I had to do my no-adjective-to-describe-it stupid catholicism homework and writing a half-assed thesis I will end up changing for world history.. yargh.. so the rest of the day ensues leaving me upset and moapish (if that is a word) especially because, you have to understand, I applied for Journalism last Friday, something.. gosh.. I put it on my application for St. Agnes as something I knew I wanted to do.. last year I knew I wanted to do it junior year.. this year I knew I wanted to do it... so to stop this bad run-on sentence, I had been checking Ms. Gehbauer (is that how you spell it?)'s door on all of the possible chances between classes and even a few I threw in and was almost tardy because of. The whole day was agonizing, I just wanted to know right then, if I was going to be disappointed, I wanted it to happen as soon as possible so I could finish it with the rest of my day and just dismiss it as running out of my luck and just having a bad day.. and if I did make it.. I wanted to know right away so at least I could cling to one reason to make it through the day.. so anyway, after P.E. Steph-Chan said she would check for me, I guess I managed to forget that within the 10 minutes of homeroom.. I just figured, "hey.. well there were a lot of girls who applied.. maybe she needs till tomorrow or something.." so I found Analyn and we started going to orchestra.. of course as my usualy discussion after school goes.. I bitched and bitched about my day.. analyn thinks she has it worse than everyone in the world, I admit I would not in a million years trade my life for hers but seriously.. she needs to deal with her problems and undertand that other people might feel that their stuff is really bad at times too.. so I am talking about my B's I got during the day and she turns to me with the soooooo hurt (not to mention sooooooooooooo fake/dramatic) look like a puppy who was doing something bad then got slapped with a newspaper AND I QUOTE:
"Sarah! You don't know what its like, you should be so happy for your grades compared to people like m.. people that get C's,D's, and F's.. you should be grateful because you have no idea how hard I.. they work... I was at All-State and it was Mr. Hernandez's conducter from college so he kept picking on me for the whole time... he asked me what my GPA was and I had to lie! It has fallen to a 2.7, 2.8, I didn't know what to do so I said I had a 3.0.. I was too embarressed! Then! He asked me if I could raise it to a 3.4.. I was so embarressed.. I didn't know what to say.. I wish I had better grades but he was so mean to me"
Ok.. I am grateful.. in fact I so flucking grateful for my A's.. so what, I get upset when they sink to B's.. yes.. true.. but that is just becuase I if I was only sad for C's-D's then how would I stay on the honor roll.. the higher you set your standards.. the higher your preformance.. I am sorry that she has trouble at St. Agnes.. it is not my fault.. COUNTLESS times I have tried to help her.. SERIOUSLY.. I know when everyone is around I complain about her but it is in just cause... she rejects my help. One time I offered to look over her Algebra notes, she quickly replies to me that she "doesn't take Algebra notes, they dont help me" .. alright.. without notes and examples how do you study.. "oh I look at my book" .. what if you get stuck and can't figure out some word or type of problem.. "*silence*".. a week or so later.. "Gaaaaaaaaawd.. I failed another one of my history tests.. history is so hard I studied for hours this weekend and I still failed my test" .. hey.. i will be here after school and I can help you out.. how do you study? "oh.. I review my book... I find if I stare at the book.. I can retain the information better" (T.T does anyone see the logic behind this sentence?! I certainly dont.. if this is how you keep studying.. and it still doesnt work.. WHY DO YOU KEEP STUDYING THAT WAY" ... about a month ago.. "aahhhh... I have a really long vocab test tomorrow and I just cant remember the words" .. have you made flashcards? "flashcards dont work for me.. I tried them once (<-- I am stressing this word for my point) and I couldnt remember anything.. it took me an hour to make them too.. I could have been looking over my sheet" ... how long did you study them? "about five minutes" .... GOD!.... I don't know if this shows anyone why I act so hostile to Analyn behind her back.. I know it is wrong and I have tried to be her friend she just... here is a list..
1. She is so naive. (She believed two people in New Jersey saying a guy liked her... over THE GUY!)
2. She asks for advice but acts like its bullshit (case and reason from above)
3. She brags about violin everything but then is almost reduced to tears when you mention something you did well at grade-wise
4. She doesn't understand how to pursue a relationship (she stalks guys until it is so blatantly obvious to him that his FRIENDS talk about her as "hey _____, where is your stalker girl?"
5. She just....... GAH......... doesn't listen to me... GOD.... I guess being the oldest child I have inherited some-what of a bossiness.. AND.. I may or/may not have seen how long I could go without tying my own shoes and making other people do it for me (6 weeks babyyyy.. WOO!) but the ONE thing I cant stand and that sends me into a rant.. is when I am right and people dont listen... i like taking care of people.. I have done my siblings projects for them so they wouldnt get a late grade and if I know the answers I dish out answers to those who ask.. it honestly does hurt when people I know, dont get a good grade..
oh well..... so that was REALLY off on a tangent hehehe.... oh well it just steams me (conclusion) especially because as it was SO VERY OBVIOUS.. a conducter at a college asks a girl about her grades and asks the possibility for raising it a couple tenths.. HE DOESNT MEAN OFFENSE.. DING-A-LING-A-LING.. CHA-CHING.. HE IS TRYING TO SEE IF YOU ARE ELLIGIBLE FOR A SCHOLARSHIP..... god.. that is was steams me.. T_T ok......... back to "my day"...... so I am walking over to strake and we are a good 15 feet onto the curb when I start to hear "SARAH! SARAH! SARAH!.."I kinda ignored it because I always ignore that name .. its always someone calling someone else.. it is literally a pain in the neck to respond to it.. someone says Sammeh!, I whip around.. so ok.. the yelling gets closer so I slowly turn around and there is Steph-Chan, Mizu, and Rachel running across the parking lot.. "YOU MADE IT! YOU MADE IT INTO JOURNALISM!" ..... it was like getting absorbed into a big warm marshmellow.... it was the greatest feeling ever.. my heart which had been pounding and beating like a rodent's all day.. felt like it swelled and it just...... it was such a good feeling.. I can't even describe it...and I was so happy that it was them that told me.. it is something I will remember for a long time.. them.. running aross the parking lot yelling my name and that I got into journalism.. it was.......oh..... just it was so great.. and i really appreciate you checking for me and telling me guys ^_^.... the rest of the day I felt so great and so confident.. analyn looked so pitiful... ~_~ .. geez.. I wish she would have said something.... I was the first to congradulate her when she made all-state... I didnt say anything either... we just walked.. of course in orchestra I told everyone.. all my freshmen-minions were happy and swarming around me.. eheheh.... I feel conceited... minions are good ego-boosters.. but anyway...it made my day and it helped me forget all the bad.. so thanks ^_^.. I am gonna go finish my chem homework..

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[birdinablender.livejournal.com]

After I found you in the Parking lot, I went back to the libraray, and who did I find hunched over a computer like a lion hunched over a piece of meat, MEGAN!!! I told Ashley what had just happened, and Megan said,"I think Sarah hates me, and I hate her."
I said,"No, Sarah just think your annoying, I think you're an annoying fat-assed bitch." Te-he Te-he.