Undici Giorni
Aug. 6th, 2007 12:22 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassIn five hours, I will be leaving for 11 days of free travel before I head back to Texas. I am both excited and completely nervous about the next few days.
Before I meet Heidi in Milan this coming weekend, I am going to head to the Veneto region in Norther Italy. There we will be visiting Verona, Vicenza, and Venezia (Venice).
It's so funny how I broke all of this time into chunks and it made two weeks seem like nothing. But now, faced with 11 days of complete unpredictability, it seems like this huge span of time. When in reality, it's nothing. I have five days till Heidi gets here yet it seems like an eternity from now.
I think it's probably because I can't really accept the fact that I won't be here, in Rome, anymore. I feel like I am going to be here forever, not for the next five hours--so of course I feel like it's an "eternity" from now. As strange as this place has been and so contrary to everything I usually hold dear, my mind has just accepted this place as "reality" despite how bizarre and out of place I feel all of the time. Suddenly being accepted, recognized, appreciated and loved seems really strange and almost frightening. I am sure it will all be forgotten immediately. I am kind of glad I get to stop in Texas and regain my bearings and grip on reality before I head back to what I have established as a kind of holy land in my head.
I am just ready to get back. I'm ready to find some new challenges this year. I'm ready to expand old bonds and make new ones. This year is completely unlike the last when I had like fifteen commitments I'd been preparing to take on for 2 years. Now, I am completely fun and fancy free. I have to find myself some new niches to embed myself and some new opportunities and challenges to lead. It's really exciting. After the havoc of last year where things just stagnated in the end, I have to think a huge upswing is on the horizon. If not, I plan on making it so.
I have had six weeks to reflect on everything I want to do and everything I want to try and be at home. I feel like if I don't make good on those inspirations, it will be to deny this entire experience and not put it to proper use.
I am not even scared of structures. I've decided to take that class by the mofo-ing balls. So what if it's the organic chemistry of architecture? Right? I don't know, Building Construction did kick my ass but everyone problem I have had with that class chalked up to poor teaching and unfair grading practices. I retained a lot even if my quiz grades projected me as the dunce of the department. I still scratched a B even with the antichrist doing my grading. What I know is that the structure's professors are good--Duff is hilarious and came and visited us here. When I like and respect the professor, I'm way more apt to respect the class materials when they are presented to me. I am taking the full prep week, even if the math is below me. I know I am good at math but I haven't taken it for three years and sometimes find myself making stupid mistakes. The other half of my problem with BC was that they didn't delve into subjects deep enough because "we'd learn about it in structures." That half-learning frustrated me to no end, so hopefully the whole enchilada will be a lot more satisfying. If all sucks in the end, I still have my merry coterie where bitching and morbid whining is one of our favorite pass times. Plus, nothing fixes homework stress than home-cooking--which I am looking for any and all opportunities to do. I don't want another class in college to kick my ass. I want to be good at structures, especially after we got completely laughed at during our review because our building had faulty structural properties. I'm ready to understand how integrating practicality can be made beautiful. In my current designs, I use a lot of exposed structural beams and materials but I don't know if any of these systems work. Finally, I'll be able to see the reality or impracticality of what I do. A whole new world kids, a whole new world.
Okay, I have to go try packing again. I wasn't able to vacuum pack all my clothes like when I came. Funny because I haven't acquired anything. Grr. I'm going to go take a stab at that.
I bid you, journal, farewell. Stories of my travels will hopefully follow when I return to the US on the 17th (or maybe a few days later after I've recovered but before I've bored myself from telling them to too many people that I don't want to write about them anymore!)
Before I meet Heidi in Milan this coming weekend, I am going to head to the Veneto region in Norther Italy. There we will be visiting Verona, Vicenza, and Venezia (Venice).
It's so funny how I broke all of this time into chunks and it made two weeks seem like nothing. But now, faced with 11 days of complete unpredictability, it seems like this huge span of time. When in reality, it's nothing. I have five days till Heidi gets here yet it seems like an eternity from now.
I think it's probably because I can't really accept the fact that I won't be here, in Rome, anymore. I feel like I am going to be here forever, not for the next five hours--so of course I feel like it's an "eternity" from now. As strange as this place has been and so contrary to everything I usually hold dear, my mind has just accepted this place as "reality" despite how bizarre and out of place I feel all of the time. Suddenly being accepted, recognized, appreciated and loved seems really strange and almost frightening. I am sure it will all be forgotten immediately. I am kind of glad I get to stop in Texas and regain my bearings and grip on reality before I head back to what I have established as a kind of holy land in my head.
I am just ready to get back. I'm ready to find some new challenges this year. I'm ready to expand old bonds and make new ones. This year is completely unlike the last when I had like fifteen commitments I'd been preparing to take on for 2 years. Now, I am completely fun and fancy free. I have to find myself some new niches to embed myself and some new opportunities and challenges to lead. It's really exciting. After the havoc of last year where things just stagnated in the end, I have to think a huge upswing is on the horizon. If not, I plan on making it so.
I have had six weeks to reflect on everything I want to do and everything I want to try and be at home. I feel like if I don't make good on those inspirations, it will be to deny this entire experience and not put it to proper use.
I am not even scared of structures. I've decided to take that class by the mofo-ing balls. So what if it's the organic chemistry of architecture? Right? I don't know, Building Construction did kick my ass but everyone problem I have had with that class chalked up to poor teaching and unfair grading practices. I retained a lot even if my quiz grades projected me as the dunce of the department. I still scratched a B even with the antichrist doing my grading. What I know is that the structure's professors are good--Duff is hilarious and came and visited us here. When I like and respect the professor, I'm way more apt to respect the class materials when they are presented to me. I am taking the full prep week, even if the math is below me. I know I am good at math but I haven't taken it for three years and sometimes find myself making stupid mistakes. The other half of my problem with BC was that they didn't delve into subjects deep enough because "we'd learn about it in structures." That half-learning frustrated me to no end, so hopefully the whole enchilada will be a lot more satisfying. If all sucks in the end, I still have my merry coterie where bitching and morbid whining is one of our favorite pass times. Plus, nothing fixes homework stress than home-cooking--which I am looking for any and all opportunities to do. I don't want another class in college to kick my ass. I want to be good at structures, especially after we got completely laughed at during our review because our building had faulty structural properties. I'm ready to understand how integrating practicality can be made beautiful. In my current designs, I use a lot of exposed structural beams and materials but I don't know if any of these systems work. Finally, I'll be able to see the reality or impracticality of what I do. A whole new world kids, a whole new world.
Okay, I have to go try packing again. I wasn't able to vacuum pack all my clothes like when I came. Funny because I haven't acquired anything. Grr. I'm going to go take a stab at that.
I bid you, journal, farewell. Stories of my travels will hopefully follow when I return to the US on the 17th (or maybe a few days later after I've recovered but before I've bored myself from telling them to too many people that I don't want to write about them anymore!)
