It's Getting Better All the Time
Jul. 5th, 2007 11:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassThe guitarist visited my window again. This time I was able to jot down a few lyrics so hopefully I can find the song he was singing the first time. Though it won't be as amazing as the first time I was accidentally serenaded through my window, I love using songs as memories so it excites me to have one on the horizon. Right now my playlist is pretty much a series of memories from different occasions, it always keeps me in a better head place because I can wrap an unfamiliar or stressful situation around a familiar context. Anyway, it was nice to be serenaded again. This time I enjoyed his singing while typing up all of my journal entries and drinking a juicebox of wine (viva Italia!)
Media studies today were not too exciting. Technical field drawing is just sheerly stressful. I love doing interpretive perspectives and diagrams trying to capture the feeling of a space. However, today it was about trying to accurately capture the complex measurements of the Pantheon and St. Ivo using only the eye as a guide. A cruel task since both buildings were designed to fool the eye. Blech, oh well.
Tomorrow we are heading to Tivoli to see I don't know quite what. It's a field trip and we have a couple sites. Ugh, the fees are going to be like 16 Euro. More drawing ahead. Hopefully this will be of the more interpretive kind.
Today we presented our little model schemes for each of the sites and I got some pretty positive reception to my ideas. Other people had some interesting interpretations but I was really glad that people appreciated my idea for the crappy site. One guy even came up to me after presentation to tell me how much he really did like mine and called in ingenious. Ihab seemed to like it and called me edgy (reminiscent of Givens calling me "gutsty.. ah, memories). I'm getting a little more interested in the project. Not overly so, but enough to kind of explore these preliminary stages. Our assignment was to do one overly contextual model, one that ignored it completely, and a third to find the hybrid. Finally I was able to escape my please everyone, unassuming building curse. I think I made some of the most out-there hybrids so I can already tell I'm approaching design a bit different. I've never started a project without having a loose program already. We had to shape without really knowing too much about the building so I wasn't all hung up in what would go there. It was refreshing. Ihab still irked with his horrid communication and inability to admit he is wrong but I actually feel like I learned something today about myself.
I've been having the most horrible and bizarre dreams lately. Part of the reason I keep starting each day on edge. Mostly they seem to be issues of unresolved or inadequately resolved conflict with certain people from over the year. Last night I had repetitive nightmares about missing various trains and flights--talk about post-traumatic stress. My unconscious won't even let go of the accident. Perpetually haunted by guilt. It reminds me off all the awful dreams I had leading up to my flight about trying to pack and having all of my things strewn about across the city of Chicago where I couldn't pick them all up. As far as bizarre, I experienced a first the other night when I dreamed in animation. I've heard about people who dream in black and white, etc. but this was a whole new ball game. It was like a bizarre movie with animal characters. My psyche is going nuts apparently.
Today I seized upon my desire to improve my nutrition and thus attitude (eating better in Eugene always made me feel better mentally) so I cooked beef and lentils. A bit chewy but incredibly satisfying. My roommates went out but I was okay sticking it alone. I'm rediscovering the line between self-isolation and independence. I'm not scared of these girls, I don't mind talking to them. I've tried and I don't think we we mesh too well. That's okay. We are all nice people, I just kind of missed to boat on getting in on their tripod when they were all first getting acquainted. As I told Heidi, I'm tired of trying to make nice nice with the BFFs. I can still do things with them when I want but I don't have to and that's refreshing. The pressure of this whole situation has been resolved since I stopped trying to be something for my own good. I never try to be anything usually, I just am. Why should this situation be any different? Because it's unfamiliar? If anything, I am the most familiar thing I know right now.
Anyway, they have returned and are hitting the hay. I should do the same. Buonanotte.
Media studies today were not too exciting. Technical field drawing is just sheerly stressful. I love doing interpretive perspectives and diagrams trying to capture the feeling of a space. However, today it was about trying to accurately capture the complex measurements of the Pantheon and St. Ivo using only the eye as a guide. A cruel task since both buildings were designed to fool the eye. Blech, oh well.
Tomorrow we are heading to Tivoli to see I don't know quite what. It's a field trip and we have a couple sites. Ugh, the fees are going to be like 16 Euro. More drawing ahead. Hopefully this will be of the more interpretive kind.
Today we presented our little model schemes for each of the sites and I got some pretty positive reception to my ideas. Other people had some interesting interpretations but I was really glad that people appreciated my idea for the crappy site. One guy even came up to me after presentation to tell me how much he really did like mine and called in ingenious. Ihab seemed to like it and called me edgy (reminiscent of Givens calling me "gutsty.. ah, memories). I'm getting a little more interested in the project. Not overly so, but enough to kind of explore these preliminary stages. Our assignment was to do one overly contextual model, one that ignored it completely, and a third to find the hybrid. Finally I was able to escape my please everyone, unassuming building curse. I think I made some of the most out-there hybrids so I can already tell I'm approaching design a bit different. I've never started a project without having a loose program already. We had to shape without really knowing too much about the building so I wasn't all hung up in what would go there. It was refreshing. Ihab still irked with his horrid communication and inability to admit he is wrong but I actually feel like I learned something today about myself.
I've been having the most horrible and bizarre dreams lately. Part of the reason I keep starting each day on edge. Mostly they seem to be issues of unresolved or inadequately resolved conflict with certain people from over the year. Last night I had repetitive nightmares about missing various trains and flights--talk about post-traumatic stress. My unconscious won't even let go of the accident. Perpetually haunted by guilt. It reminds me off all the awful dreams I had leading up to my flight about trying to pack and having all of my things strewn about across the city of Chicago where I couldn't pick them all up. As far as bizarre, I experienced a first the other night when I dreamed in animation. I've heard about people who dream in black and white, etc. but this was a whole new ball game. It was like a bizarre movie with animal characters. My psyche is going nuts apparently.
Today I seized upon my desire to improve my nutrition and thus attitude (eating better in Eugene always made me feel better mentally) so I cooked beef and lentils. A bit chewy but incredibly satisfying. My roommates went out but I was okay sticking it alone. I'm rediscovering the line between self-isolation and independence. I'm not scared of these girls, I don't mind talking to them. I've tried and I don't think we we mesh too well. That's okay. We are all nice people, I just kind of missed to boat on getting in on their tripod when they were all first getting acquainted. As I told Heidi, I'm tired of trying to make nice nice with the BFFs. I can still do things with them when I want but I don't have to and that's refreshing. The pressure of this whole situation has been resolved since I stopped trying to be something for my own good. I never try to be anything usually, I just am. Why should this situation be any different? Because it's unfamiliar? If anything, I am the most familiar thing I know right now.
Anyway, they have returned and are hitting the hay. I should do the same. Buonanotte.
