Arrival & Acceptance
Jun. 28th, 2007 07:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassYesterday was incredibly rough but somehow I managed to get to the piazza via train and taxi. I was so exhausted and overwhelmed. I hate being that on edge. What was worse was that the mere thought of familiar things pushed me into tears. IMing Colin was ridiculously difficult (SO: I am such a sap these days!). Hopefully I've gotten the "leak" out of my system by now. I miss him of course, but I cannot allow myself to be sad like that. It's obviously not what I want, and I know that's not what he wants (or anyone for that matter).
People here keep telling me I didn't miss much but I am still not completely grasping our assignment. Everyone was quite curious about my circumstances but overall, sympathetic. I had a hard time appreciating my surroundings because, I hate to admit, I am not a super human and I just felt so fragile. Ugh. That's been happening to often. I need to rediscover the sarcastic take-it-or-motherfuckin'-leav-it Sarah that signed up for this trip in the first place.
My first observation here: walking down the street almost feels like being indoors because all the alleys are so enclosed. However, simultaneously, it feels nothing like being "outdoors" in the familiar sense because green in the landscape is walled off or comes in potted plant form. Apparently we are walking a lot today--I hope I survive. I woke up twice this morning--once when it was roaring outside and once during total quiet. I couldn't sleep after the second time (around 4:45 AM). I will be tired tonight, that's for sure.
People here keep telling me I didn't miss much but I am still not completely grasping our assignment. Everyone was quite curious about my circumstances but overall, sympathetic. I had a hard time appreciating my surroundings because, I hate to admit, I am not a super human and I just felt so fragile. Ugh. That's been happening to often. I need to rediscover the sarcastic take-it-or-motherfuckin'-leav-it Sarah that signed up for this trip in the first place.
My first observation here: walking down the street almost feels like being indoors because all the alleys are so enclosed. However, simultaneously, it feels nothing like being "outdoors" in the familiar sense because green in the landscape is walled off or comes in potted plant form. Apparently we are walking a lot today--I hope I survive. I woke up twice this morning--once when it was roaring outside and once during total quiet. I couldn't sleep after the second time (around 4:45 AM). I will be tired tonight, that's for sure.
