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transomwhiplassEach paper gets harder and harder to write. It's funny that I can push myself for three straight days to complete an architecture project and then totally push off a paper until the very. last. second.
Last night I started feeling tired at around 10 PM, so I set my alarm for an hour and went to sleep. That was pretty much my entire night - setting my alarm, sleep, resetting it, etc. I think around 3 AM I made myself get up and decide on what I was going to write about. As soon as I thought of a title, I went back to sleep. I finally started working on the paper around 7 AM. lol. I have 1/3rd of my 4th page written. It's 5-7 pages, so that's not too bad.
It's pretty weak. My topic is really predictable and I feel like my sequence is all messed up. I probably would be fine to write it, but Betsy totally tore into my last paper (and everyone else's for that matter). Even though I know I'm a good writer, I've felt like a shitty one ever since. She gave me a B+ and lowered it to a B "for style." Apparently she doesn't like how I embed my quotations into my explanations, most teachers love that. Then again, this is an English class and I can't get away with my usual tricks. UGH. She doesn't even outline what constitutes a D on a paper, the lowest thing she describes is a C. A B is "meets expectation" so I feel like I got a C. I haven't even received a paper back with anything lower than an A- to my memory. I suppose I knew this time was coming and someone was going to call me on my bullshit. However, after becoming totally worn out after studio - this is hardly the time.
Part of me wants to keep honing my writing skills and learn something from this class but another half feels like I'm good enough already.
I don't know. I'm rambling. See, I am a bad writer. Boo hoo. Anyway, it just comes down to me not wanting to write this paper because I already feel like it's way weaker than the first one. I don't really know what to do to make it better. I just want to turn it in and make it go away. It's hard because Heidi is in my class and she worked really, really hard on this one. She will probably get an A in the class. Then again, this is her last assignment ever in her undergraduate education. I'm not even half done...
Oh well, I just hope I get an A in media so I don't feel like a total schmuck when grades come out. Now, please excuse me since I have around 3.5 hours to finish this thing.
Last night I started feeling tired at around 10 PM, so I set my alarm for an hour and went to sleep. That was pretty much my entire night - setting my alarm, sleep, resetting it, etc. I think around 3 AM I made myself get up and decide on what I was going to write about. As soon as I thought of a title, I went back to sleep. I finally started working on the paper around 7 AM. lol. I have 1/3rd of my 4th page written. It's 5-7 pages, so that's not too bad.
It's pretty weak. My topic is really predictable and I feel like my sequence is all messed up. I probably would be fine to write it, but Betsy totally tore into my last paper (and everyone else's for that matter). Even though I know I'm a good writer, I've felt like a shitty one ever since. She gave me a B+ and lowered it to a B "for style." Apparently she doesn't like how I embed my quotations into my explanations, most teachers love that. Then again, this is an English class and I can't get away with my usual tricks. UGH. She doesn't even outline what constitutes a D on a paper, the lowest thing she describes is a C. A B is "meets expectation" so I feel like I got a C. I haven't even received a paper back with anything lower than an A- to my memory. I suppose I knew this time was coming and someone was going to call me on my bullshit. However, after becoming totally worn out after studio - this is hardly the time.
Part of me wants to keep honing my writing skills and learn something from this class but another half feels like I'm good enough already.
I don't know. I'm rambling. See, I am a bad writer. Boo hoo. Anyway, it just comes down to me not wanting to write this paper because I already feel like it's way weaker than the first one. I don't really know what to do to make it better. I just want to turn it in and make it go away. It's hard because Heidi is in my class and she worked really, really hard on this one. She will probably get an A in the class. Then again, this is her last assignment ever in her undergraduate education. I'm not even half done...
Oh well, I just hope I get an A in media so I don't feel like a total schmuck when grades come out. Now, please excuse me since I have around 3.5 hours to finish this thing.
