sarah, the carosel is making me dizzy

[transomwhiplass]

yes.. I have been talking to myself more and more lately.. how odd.. oh well.. it doesnt hurt anyone/thing.... I am in a weird place.. I feel.. dizzy.. and I am trying to walk a line but I keep falling over on each side... but the line goes as far as I can see.. and my dizziness wont go away.. good.. now that my metaphor has confused you.. I will try as hard as possible to avoid the point so you will still be confused... I like to keep it that way.. so I've been walking this line.. actually when ever I get into a mood/state.. it always effects my entire life at the moment... the small things and the large, the sad and the happy.. it just.. comes to that... like.. endgame.. for that week.. my entire life revolved around that little book.. well.. now my life is a dizzy blurry line.. I can't see where I am going, I feel nauseated, but I keep falling on either side.. I cant just walk a straight path... so what exactly is confusing me.. I will continue to avoid the point.. I was looking at some LJ communities that have stirred up thought.. I feel strange.. not bad... but different.. it is delightful how the mind works ^_^.. I am my own walking science experiment... yay.. DORK.... uhm...... I don't know... ok.. well.. I got that out! ^_^.. and none of you understood, fantastic! (I love long adjectives)...... ok..... sorry...... it is really late.. one of my eyes reaaaaaaaaallly hurts.. I should sleep/but can't.... so I have been looking at assorted communities to make myself sleep... I feel myself maturing.. I can feel it.. I think I will make a good adult someday... but 65 is a long way away (ok.. 'xcuse the rhyme) (lol.. you cant make me grow up) ok.. I will end this.. for all of our sanities:

Some ponderations mostly for me.. but you can think about them too, who's stoppin' ya?

1) How are you sure of something about yourself? (I like___, I dislike___, My favorite___, I am good at___/bad at___)

2) Can you go through life without making any decisions?

3) What is society based on (in a nutshell)?

4) How huge is the role of "acceptance" (of any form) in society?

5) Can you force yourself to change your personality?

uhm.. I could go on.. but.. I will just make one more.. it needs to be a good one

6) What would your heaven be?


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maybe I will put my thoughts for those later.. but my damn eye hurts too much... so I sleep now.. -Sarah