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transomwhiplassI'm barely alive right now. I just channeled my final wors into an LJ post but it was too long-winded and whiny to be seen by the public. I'm in critical condition but I think with a few more movies, some therapeutic cleaning, some private kareoke sessions, the Belle & Sebastian/New Pornographers concert, sleep, and proper nurtrition I have a shot a pulling through.
I'm having sadness with my classes right now. I'm having sadness/happiness with the sacrifices I made for studio. I'm glad for what I did, but sad that I didn't do that much more to really wring the last drops of whatever benefit I left over. There were times when logistically, I could have done more and for those I mourn.
However, part of me knows there was nothing more I could have really done - I took too many credits, I still have APO commitments (though I backseated them often), I didn't get enough sleep, and I didn't eat timely and well balanced meals. While, yes.. I could have stayed a few more hours into the night, been totally antisocial and not talked to people and totally cut myself off from movies and the internet, I probably would still not be totally satisfied with my studio work and I would have been really insane to boot.
I don't know. I'm sad that I don't feel like I learned stuff in my other classes. I'm also sad that my work probably reflected how much I was paying attention (note to hypothetical secretary: two hour 4 PM classes do NOT work with four hour 8 AM-Noon classes.. never again).
Anyway, it will be okay. My handy, dandy selective memory will replace all this bad juju with happy thoughts. Yay for coping mechanisms. Ok, I'm getting very tired now. Time for bed, yay.
Oh wait, good songs:
1. Electric President - Good Morning, Hypocrite
2. Mellowdrone - Orange Marmalade
3. Casiotone for the Painfully Alone - Young Shields
4. Low - Monkey
5. B. Fleischmann - Static Grate
6. Field Music - Pieces
7. Kiss Me Deadly - Dance 4
8. Editors - Munich
9. Liars - It Fit When I Was a Kid
I'm having sadness with my classes right now. I'm having sadness/happiness with the sacrifices I made for studio. I'm glad for what I did, but sad that I didn't do that much more to really wring the last drops of whatever benefit I left over. There were times when logistically, I could have done more and for those I mourn.
However, part of me knows there was nothing more I could have really done - I took too many credits, I still have APO commitments (though I backseated them often), I didn't get enough sleep, and I didn't eat timely and well balanced meals. While, yes.. I could have stayed a few more hours into the night, been totally antisocial and not talked to people and totally cut myself off from movies and the internet, I probably would still not be totally satisfied with my studio work and I would have been really insane to boot.
I don't know. I'm sad that I don't feel like I learned stuff in my other classes. I'm also sad that my work probably reflected how much I was paying attention (note to hypothetical secretary: two hour 4 PM classes do NOT work with four hour 8 AM-Noon classes.. never again).
Anyway, it will be okay. My handy, dandy selective memory will replace all this bad juju with happy thoughts. Yay for coping mechanisms. Ok, I'm getting very tired now. Time for bed, yay.
Oh wait, good songs:
1. Electric President - Good Morning, Hypocrite
2. Mellowdrone - Orange Marmalade
3. Casiotone for the Painfully Alone - Young Shields
4. Low - Monkey
5. B. Fleischmann - Static Grate
6. Field Music - Pieces
7. Kiss Me Deadly - Dance 4
8. Editors - Munich
9. Liars - It Fit When I Was a Kid
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Date: 2006-03-24 03:27 am (UTC)