No es bueno.

[transomwhiplass]

God.. I just feel so yucky.. I seriously feel like going and taking nap in a pile of dirt... I just feel all around crappy.. my final sucked.. history..yeah.. what the hell was that... I lost my history books so I couldnt really study.. my notes from class were pretty bad and basically illegible since I wrote them half-asleep.... I don't know.. I guess my mucking around and not studying has really caught up with me.. I dont think I have ever felt the slapback so hard before.. good mary, 92 .. uhhhhhhhhh.... I am estimating a low B/high C here... uhm.. yeah.. but I meant to talk about history.. it would have been easy.. if I had studied my test.. and read the WWII chapter... its sad when its the multiple choice that kicks your ass... the essay I think I did fine on.. but he never gives full credit.. I think it will probably be like last time.. (hopefully) 45/50 there were 100 multiple choice so if I missed less than like..... crap.. well..10... I can get the A.... mr richardson is a great teacher but he doesnt give his A's out like candy... he is usually pretty easy on us.. but if you want the A you have to work.. I usually wind up with like a 90-91.. and that is high for my class.. but it means the final will make or break me.. and even like..an 88 for the quarter would give me a B for the semester.. I never thought about it till last night... thats when I panicked.. this was a really rough semester.. I just.. slowed down.. something changed.. it just got harder.... my A in algebra became a B.. my A in chem became a B.. my barely an A in Latin turned to a B.. I still calculated that my GPA would go up.. haha.. .0something.. but it would go "up" with another B.. it will go down... I dont think I could live through that. my finals whomped... I'm not expected A's on any... I think back and wonder if I should wish I tried harder.. but I think about it.. and I really didnt have the drive for it... I don't think I could have made myself.. but I think I need to fix my ways and make better next year.. yes folks.. sarah is going to become "goal-oriented" I'm sure some of you thought you would never live to see the day.... but I think I know why my grades have dropped... I used to live for them... some people still think I do.. I still kinda do.. but they arent that high.. I mean.. go poke the carlsons.... who always seem to complain about their 4.3s... blech.... thanks Liz for making me feel dumb... god.. I hope I dont have anymore classes with Elizabeth for the rest of SAA... I think I might have to pull my arm off just so I have something to throw at her.. haha.. good ramble sarah.. write your goals.. NOW:

1) Keep an organized desk
2) Keep an organized backpack
3) Seperate you subjects
4) Don't be a packhorse (gugughhgugh... I just hope I have a good locker)
5) Much less TV and internet.. cut 20 hours a week for starts
6) Eat BRAIN food (LOL)
7) When you have that urge to procrasinate, imagine your report card and your dad yelling in your ear
8) Make "nothing is more important than your grades" your mantra
9) Be more like the carlsons
wait a second.. who is writing this stuff >_>..
10) Never accept anything as good enough
11) If you want that A you have to earn it
12) Everynight do your homework like you are preparing for your finals
13) Don't make it harder on yourslef
14) No one likes stupid people!
.. uhm k... where'd that come from..?

ok.. I'm ending it there... some of those were jokes (I hope you know that)... I don't know.. I guess my grades have become my life.. I'm just not willing to work for them... like.. REALLY not.. and before you tell me that they shouldn't be my life.. remember that it will be like trying to take my cocaine.. I will go crazy and see things and hate you for ever.. ................. k... just ignore that.. I am so damn tired I am rambling and not thinking straight... I need a naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap... so where is my pile of dirt...

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[thiswaskansas.livejournal.com]

take a nap.. calm down. it will be fine. :)