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Feb. 9th, 2005 11:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassFor some reason, I just want to let out one long, ear-piercing scream.
I' m not feeling really stressed "out", but I feel like I'm holding so much in. I just want to get it all out of my system. I don't need this negative energy bringing me down. If it was just one thing that I needed to confide someone in, I would have no problem spilling my guts.
I've been telling multiple people all sorts of bits of craziness lately. It's like when I confess what's bugging me, it's this great feeling like pushing toothpaste out of the tube. Something won't come out, I'm not sure what it is but I think if I thought about it for awhile I could figure it out.
How come things looked so lovely on Sunday and now they look so bleak? Things haven't gone bad - I got an A on a paper, I got an 87 (which I'm extremely pleased with) on my Physics midterm. School is fine, I'm doing well - I have control. APO is fine, I'm getting work done - updating the site regularly & working on the bulletin board. Money is always an "issue" but that's not bugging me right now.
I think it might be the job application and worrying about the references I put and the possible backlash I might get because of it.
This illness is not going to help stuff (mostly because it makes screaming physically impossible even if I wanted to).
I'm living a myopic existance. I'm feeling naive and overly trusting.
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[EDIT] OMG! Post # 1000 [/EDIT]
I' m not feeling really stressed "out", but I feel like I'm holding so much in. I just want to get it all out of my system. I don't need this negative energy bringing me down. If it was just one thing that I needed to confide someone in, I would have no problem spilling my guts.
I've been telling multiple people all sorts of bits of craziness lately. It's like when I confess what's bugging me, it's this great feeling like pushing toothpaste out of the tube. Something won't come out, I'm not sure what it is but I think if I thought about it for awhile I could figure it out.
How come things looked so lovely on Sunday and now they look so bleak? Things haven't gone bad - I got an A on a paper, I got an 87 (which I'm extremely pleased with) on my Physics midterm. School is fine, I'm doing well - I have control. APO is fine, I'm getting work done - updating the site regularly & working on the bulletin board. Money is always an "issue" but that's not bugging me right now.
I think it might be the job application and worrying about the references I put and the possible backlash I might get because of it.
This illness is not going to help stuff (mostly because it makes screaming physically impossible even if I wanted to).
I'm living a myopic existance. I'm feeling naive and overly trusting.
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[EDIT] OMG! Post # 1000 [/EDIT]
