I'm back or something

[transomwhiplass]

I'm so tired. So incredibly freaking tired. I had class at 9 this morning and despite the fact that I know plenty of people who deal with such atrocity in silence, I choose to whine. I finished class at 11 today. Last term I didn't have class till 11.

I'm going to have to start going to bed earlier. It's not really an issue for me, but I'm worried it might bother Elizabeth. I can sleep if she wants to stay up even though she has problems when it goes the other way. It took me awhile to get to sleep last night which subtracted how much rest I actually got.

For the lost sleep I have a number of fun factors to blame. The largest one by far is a jolly note Elizabeth & I both got in the mail saying we violated the fire code and residence hall contract. We have schedule times to meet with the complex director. It's really stressing me out and I'm worried that I did something wrong. What a fabulous welcome back. I hate the fucking dorms so much. We live in squat holes (UO = #1 Princeton Review: Dorms Like Dungeons). The food sucks, of course. The kick us out of our holes with gusto and don't give us a lot of time to move back in. They don't yell at people who really violate the obvious rules (like having a quasi-party in the hall at 2 AM during finals week) and give people like me who have a heart attack whenever they *might* be in trouble scary official letters. Honest to god, I'm terrified of authority.. like unnaturally. I'm always so careful to dot all my i's, cross my t's. My middle school was such a gulag - it was a rich, suburban white-kid school and they treated us all like felons, addicts and arsonists. I was so scared of forgetting to wear a belt or my shirt becoming untucked, which would lead to getting slammed down by the vice-principal that I wore overalls for 3 years. So it's times like these that I just want to break down and cry because I never try to do anything wrong. I'm not a rebel, I'm a total conformist-wimp.

I hope I don't get the guillotine for guilt by reason of ignorance. Honestly, I think I'll have a breakdown if I even get a harsh scolding.

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I have to finish the arch. application.

Comments

[birdinablender.livejournal.com]

Don't worry that much about it. Ashley got cited for breaking a fire code by putting a large Texas flag in her 8th floor window. Supposedly, it was blocking a possible fire escape, even though there is no ladder/staircase, and her room is eight stories up.