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transomwhiplassOk, so remember when I said that I was going to be really, REALLY stressed out if I managed to get nothing done over Thanksgiving?
Yeah, ta da!
I hate getting stressed because in my case, it just creates apathy. The architecture project? Pfft. I didn't even proof it to whether it made sense or not. I read through it but with the amount of sleep I got I wasn't comprehending my own writing. I just finished physics homework. Everytime I do it and submit it, I get a shitty grade (in my opinion). My homework average is going to be C range. I know he is going to bump our grades up. My midterm average is a 79. If I get bumped into B range, I will be soooo freaking thankful. I do not want a C first term. The only C's I got in high school were in honors classes that I promptly dropped down from freshman year.
The good news of all of this is that I have a horseshoe up my ass and I usually luck out in these situations. I'm not stupid, I know that. I know there are lots of people dumber than me. Yes, that sounds arrogant but it's factual. If I'm on what I think is an unfortunate point on the grading curve, there are a bunch more people below me.
My architecture project - I got it back today. Another freaking check plus. On the rubric the only thing I didn't get check pluses for were two things that were missing. My GTF didn't penalize me in the comments either. As long as I do an ok job on my last project and put it together with my notes all attractively - I'm pretty sure I'll wind up with a decent grade in that class. The professor says he is going to go over and read everyone's projects. Yeah... I don't think so. There are like 250 people in my class, he is going to do some scanning. My guess is that he will scan the GTFs grades and generally agree with them. I've been reading economic theory for the last 12 hours - I know it isn't in his best self interest to spend that many hours that he could put toward a more profitable activity going over papers that individuals, I assume finds qualified, already went over. Even if he does go over all of them with a fine tooth comb, my projects will still be above people who didn't get a check plus on every project. I'm not worried. Now I have to come up with an "evocative pattern" and I should be locked in to success.
My physics homework, though very shitty the first time I submitted it (55%) - I managed to see my error on one problem and added 10% to my score. He mentioned that no one was getting one problem and hinted there might be a computer error. If he takes that question off or if I really got it right - then I will be 7-10 points better off.
I still have to finish one more book for discussion with my econ. prof. This second book is much more esoteric, I wish I would have given myself more time to read it so I could appreciate it. It's pretty interesting as far as I can tell, but I just don't get it. The other book was a straightforward and humorous summary of micro and macroeconomics. I didn't really comprehend the detail on stock markets and taxation but I figure I will be able to steer the convo somewhat. Since I liked the first book better, I can dominate the convo with ideas from that one, ideally (I don't know how this is supposed to work, what kinds of questions he is going to ask, etc. I assume it will be like a job interview. There will be questions he wants answers to, but you can creatively invent how you want to answer the questions to highlight your best talents. Everything in economics is connected so I can probably get away with talking about something else for awhile if you connect I points well enough.) I understand globilization better than the Federal Bank so I think I'll stick to the prior topic when possible. I'm not too worried even though I haven't finished and/or really understand the second book. Though.. I was summarizing the points of the second book to Elizabeth earlier and realized I do kind of understand what's going on better than I give myself credit for; I just wish I could make sense of the details better.
Welcome to Sarah's world. Hopelessly optimistic for one of two reasons. (This is how the second book is set up). Either I'm optimistic because I'm so arrogant in my own abilities that I know I will pull through fantastically, I'm just thatwonderful. Maybe I'm optimistic because, obviously being here now, my abilities have obviously not failed me yet. Either my optimism stems from my confidence, or from my track record. Or is it that simple? These two reasons could both be at work effecting eachother. But how? My track record stems from my abilities - thus the fact that I haven't failed yet gives me confidence that I will continue not failing. However, my abilities are fueled by an incentive not to spoil my track record - maybe the reason I haven't failed isn't just because I'm naturally awesome, it could be that I continue to succeed because I push myself not to fail. Yadda yadda. It goes around like that. It's confusing.. it kind of makes sense, it just kind of spirals into points and then leaps off into tangents. I'm on pg 70 in 260. Oy vey. I'd like to get to 100 tonight. I don't think I have enough time (at the pace I'm pulling through it, and that's not taking time to thoroughly grasp the material) to read all of that tomorrow.
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I've been reading econ for way to long. I'm now just thinking in lines of theory. Hahaha ha.. haaa. I guess that's good for when I'm talking to my prof tomorrow. It's also probably good because sometimes I get really emotional when I have so much to do. Economics reminds me of incentives and things like utility and causes me to take a step back and just think about how much utility I derive from sleep versus 40 more pages. I can get so much more logical about things. I'm getting sooo tired. I'm going to bed. I'll take care of the reading tomorrow morning (I hope).
Yeah, ta da!
I hate getting stressed because in my case, it just creates apathy. The architecture project? Pfft. I didn't even proof it to whether it made sense or not. I read through it but with the amount of sleep I got I wasn't comprehending my own writing. I just finished physics homework. Everytime I do it and submit it, I get a shitty grade (in my opinion). My homework average is going to be C range. I know he is going to bump our grades up. My midterm average is a 79. If I get bumped into B range, I will be soooo freaking thankful. I do not want a C first term. The only C's I got in high school were in honors classes that I promptly dropped down from freshman year.
The good news of all of this is that I have a horseshoe up my ass and I usually luck out in these situations. I'm not stupid, I know that. I know there are lots of people dumber than me. Yes, that sounds arrogant but it's factual. If I'm on what I think is an unfortunate point on the grading curve, there are a bunch more people below me.
My architecture project - I got it back today. Another freaking check plus. On the rubric the only thing I didn't get check pluses for were two things that were missing. My GTF didn't penalize me in the comments either. As long as I do an ok job on my last project and put it together with my notes all attractively - I'm pretty sure I'll wind up with a decent grade in that class. The professor says he is going to go over and read everyone's projects. Yeah... I don't think so. There are like 250 people in my class, he is going to do some scanning. My guess is that he will scan the GTFs grades and generally agree with them. I've been reading economic theory for the last 12 hours - I know it isn't in his best self interest to spend that many hours that he could put toward a more profitable activity going over papers that individuals, I assume finds qualified, already went over. Even if he does go over all of them with a fine tooth comb, my projects will still be above people who didn't get a check plus on every project. I'm not worried. Now I have to come up with an "evocative pattern" and I should be locked in to success.
My physics homework, though very shitty the first time I submitted it (55%) - I managed to see my error on one problem and added 10% to my score. He mentioned that no one was getting one problem and hinted there might be a computer error. If he takes that question off or if I really got it right - then I will be 7-10 points better off.
I still have to finish one more book for discussion with my econ. prof. This second book is much more esoteric, I wish I would have given myself more time to read it so I could appreciate it. It's pretty interesting as far as I can tell, but I just don't get it. The other book was a straightforward and humorous summary of micro and macroeconomics. I didn't really comprehend the detail on stock markets and taxation but I figure I will be able to steer the convo somewhat. Since I liked the first book better, I can dominate the convo with ideas from that one, ideally (I don't know how this is supposed to work, what kinds of questions he is going to ask, etc. I assume it will be like a job interview. There will be questions he wants answers to, but you can creatively invent how you want to answer the questions to highlight your best talents. Everything in economics is connected so I can probably get away with talking about something else for awhile if you connect I points well enough.) I understand globilization better than the Federal Bank so I think I'll stick to the prior topic when possible. I'm not too worried even though I haven't finished and/or really understand the second book. Though.. I was summarizing the points of the second book to Elizabeth earlier and realized I do kind of understand what's going on better than I give myself credit for; I just wish I could make sense of the details better.
Welcome to Sarah's world. Hopelessly optimistic for one of two reasons. (This is how the second book is set up). Either I'm optimistic because I'm so arrogant in my own abilities that I know I will pull through fantastically, I'm just thatwonderful. Maybe I'm optimistic because, obviously being here now, my abilities have obviously not failed me yet. Either my optimism stems from my confidence, or from my track record. Or is it that simple? These two reasons could both be at work effecting eachother. But how? My track record stems from my abilities - thus the fact that I haven't failed yet gives me confidence that I will continue not failing. However, my abilities are fueled by an incentive not to spoil my track record - maybe the reason I haven't failed isn't just because I'm naturally awesome, it could be that I continue to succeed because I push myself not to fail. Yadda yadda. It goes around like that. It's confusing.. it kind of makes sense, it just kind of spirals into points and then leaps off into tangents. I'm on pg 70 in 260. Oy vey. I'd like to get to 100 tonight. I don't think I have enough time (at the pace I'm pulling through it, and that's not taking time to thoroughly grasp the material) to read all of that tomorrow.
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I've been reading econ for way to long. I'm now just thinking in lines of theory. Hahaha ha.. haaa. I guess that's good for when I'm talking to my prof tomorrow. It's also probably good because sometimes I get really emotional when I have so much to do. Economics reminds me of incentives and things like utility and causes me to take a step back and just think about how much utility I derive from sleep versus 40 more pages. I can get so much more logical about things. I'm getting sooo tired. I'm going to bed. I'll take care of the reading tomorrow morning (I hope).
