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transomwhiplasswell.. today was rather dull.. I had that one dumb test last period that I didn't really study for that I probably got a B on.. oh well... stupid Latin.. other than that... classes were same old same old.. incredibly stupid day in catholicism.. but so much for my classes.. anyway.. what I really want to try and address are the concerns "some" are having.. and the effects of changes in our little group.. I don't want to attack.. just share my observations.. alright?:
First of all.. I would like to repeat something I have said.. at least 7 times.. at least 3 in this journal that has repeatedly bothered me: Mizu.. I love ya'.. but.. you keep using me as your excuse "oh.. sammeh doesn't like it when I have fun with other people" "oh I can't because sammeh will get jealous" "no.. whenever I leave Sammeh looks really annoyed with me".. alright.. for the 8th time I will explain.. Mizu: I DON'T CARE!.. Look.. when we spoke.. I guess you thought we were fighting.. it was because it wasn't that we just hadnt been hanging out.. it was the fact that you stopped even saying hi.. I felt I was becoming your "answer-ho" for quizzes.. because thats all you were asking me about.. and that sucked.. so I said something.. and now you go around and tell everyone that.. and make me look like some horribly jealous and overprotective person.. I mean.. I don't know what to say.. I am sorry if I give you "looks" .. I get those.. but you of all people should know I am totally in another place at most times of the day.. at the concert.. FOR THE LOVE OF JEBUS.. I told you to go "backstage"!.. I even tried to explain that I didnt want to just because I have to spend every day back there and I didn't feel like it.. I wanted you to go comfort alex.. instead you told him you couldnt because you had to appease me.. I don't want to be your excuse anymore.. I'm not THAT jealous.. ok? I still really like talking to you and hanging out when I get the chance.. but honestly, are you wearing a leash?.... I am not angry at you.. ok :).. but please.. just.. blah.. you can do whatever you want..
Ok.. now let me see.. our little group... yes.. our little group: A brief history from my perspective - I meet niki and jen in speech, jen introduces me to mizu, I meet emma in PE, emma brings jaz, mizu finds rachel and brings her over.. I meet steph in latin... we talk become good aquaintances but lead pretty seperate lives.. SUMMER.. everyone comes back in our little group.. perfect harmony, no fights, just lots of smiles and laughs, pure innocent friendship... I have no classes with anyone from the "little" group.. however.. re-meet steph in PE.. become friends this time.. we scratch our heads and think it might be a good idea to merge the groups.. the groups merge.. and well.. lots of little "interesting" new experiences sprout up.. several quiet people reduce to silence.. little quarrels arise for the first time.. he likes her but she likes him.. now everyone is upset and people are freaking out and now steph and I are back to scratching our heads.. i think that sums things up..
I want to say something about this whole little love triangle going on: If you guys.. dont get over eachother.. FAST.. and resolve stuff.. I am going to unsex everyone... THAT will definetly return the peace.. well.. >.> it works with dogs at least.. >:).. ok..
Something about the depression: No one has ever been "happy-go-lucky" in my knowledge.. ever.. yes.. we had a really good year of absolute peace.. but no one has ever been happy-go-lucky.. I think our group always had the impeccable ability to put on a mask when they were upset.. just because they think it will put a disturbance in the peace.. but another thing: let's discern what is "depression" and what is a bad day.. or just being sad. If you are upset for one day out of many.. you aren't "depressed" being depressed is a lot deeper.. you seem to be happy a lot less frequently than sad.. it goes a lot deeper.. but thats I guess an ok explanation.. right now... I would say that a lot of people are "stressed".. and.. fighting urge to go into a Latin explanation.. x_x.. ok.. but yeah.. lets think about it: it is the end of the year, grades are going in, things are winding down.. its rough.. so that is taking its toll on people.. so.. what we all need is summer for to be here.. then I think after a good refreshing break.. we will be ready to come back together.. at least i think/hope so..
lets do something really stress-free when school is over.. just go.. spend a day doing something. I think it will help.. I don't know.. my whole "addressing" didnt exactly hit the nail on the head but.. well.. I think I got in the vicinity.. again: I AM NOT MAD AT ANYONE.. but remember.. I am stressed too ^_~... and people fighting and not talking and acting all offended .. doesn't help... you are all my friends.. I don't want to choose.. but if things don't work out.. I am taking Niki and the kids and we are skipping town.. :P.. so.. lets sit down... and figure this out.. that's my proposal, ok?
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DON'T FORGET STEPH'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
First of all.. I would like to repeat something I have said.. at least 7 times.. at least 3 in this journal that has repeatedly bothered me: Mizu.. I love ya'.. but.. you keep using me as your excuse "oh.. sammeh doesn't like it when I have fun with other people" "oh I can't because sammeh will get jealous" "no.. whenever I leave Sammeh looks really annoyed with me".. alright.. for the 8th time I will explain.. Mizu: I DON'T CARE!.. Look.. when we spoke.. I guess you thought we were fighting.. it was because it wasn't that we just hadnt been hanging out.. it was the fact that you stopped even saying hi.. I felt I was becoming your "answer-ho" for quizzes.. because thats all you were asking me about.. and that sucked.. so I said something.. and now you go around and tell everyone that.. and make me look like some horribly jealous and overprotective person.. I mean.. I don't know what to say.. I am sorry if I give you "looks" .. I get those.. but you of all people should know I am totally in another place at most times of the day.. at the concert.. FOR THE LOVE OF JEBUS.. I told you to go "backstage"!.. I even tried to explain that I didnt want to just because I have to spend every day back there and I didn't feel like it.. I wanted you to go comfort alex.. instead you told him you couldnt because you had to appease me.. I don't want to be your excuse anymore.. I'm not THAT jealous.. ok? I still really like talking to you and hanging out when I get the chance.. but honestly, are you wearing a leash?.... I am not angry at you.. ok :).. but please.. just.. blah.. you can do whatever you want..
Ok.. now let me see.. our little group... yes.. our little group: A brief history from my perspective - I meet niki and jen in speech, jen introduces me to mizu, I meet emma in PE, emma brings jaz, mizu finds rachel and brings her over.. I meet steph in latin... we talk become good aquaintances but lead pretty seperate lives.. SUMMER.. everyone comes back in our little group.. perfect harmony, no fights, just lots of smiles and laughs, pure innocent friendship... I have no classes with anyone from the "little" group.. however.. re-meet steph in PE.. become friends this time.. we scratch our heads and think it might be a good idea to merge the groups.. the groups merge.. and well.. lots of little "interesting" new experiences sprout up.. several quiet people reduce to silence.. little quarrels arise for the first time.. he likes her but she likes him.. now everyone is upset and people are freaking out and now steph and I are back to scratching our heads.. i think that sums things up..
I want to say something about this whole little love triangle going on: If you guys.. dont get over eachother.. FAST.. and resolve stuff.. I am going to unsex everyone... THAT will definetly return the peace.. well.. >.> it works with dogs at least.. >:).. ok..
Something about the depression: No one has ever been "happy-go-lucky" in my knowledge.. ever.. yes.. we had a really good year of absolute peace.. but no one has ever been happy-go-lucky.. I think our group always had the impeccable ability to put on a mask when they were upset.. just because they think it will put a disturbance in the peace.. but another thing: let's discern what is "depression" and what is a bad day.. or just being sad. If you are upset for one day out of many.. you aren't "depressed" being depressed is a lot deeper.. you seem to be happy a lot less frequently than sad.. it goes a lot deeper.. but thats I guess an ok explanation.. right now... I would say that a lot of people are "stressed".. and.. fighting urge to go into a Latin explanation.. x_x.. ok.. but yeah.. lets think about it: it is the end of the year, grades are going in, things are winding down.. its rough.. so that is taking its toll on people.. so.. what we all need is summer for to be here.. then I think after a good refreshing break.. we will be ready to come back together.. at least i think/hope so..
lets do something really stress-free when school is over.. just go.. spend a day doing something. I think it will help.. I don't know.. my whole "addressing" didnt exactly hit the nail on the head but.. well.. I think I got in the vicinity.. again: I AM NOT MAD AT ANYONE.. but remember.. I am stressed too ^_~... and people fighting and not talking and acting all offended .. doesn't help... you are all my friends.. I don't want to choose.. but if things don't work out.. I am taking Niki and the kids and we are skipping town.. :P.. so.. lets sit down... and figure this out.. that's my proposal, ok?
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DON'T FORGET STEPH'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!
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Date: 2002-05-02 04:55 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2002-05-02 05:58 pm (UTC)I agree with you when you say that having a large group is kinda hard. I didn't mean to reduce people to silence, though. Never. I will just shut up if it will help. Or find some other way to get people more not-silent. I don't like the feeling that I and some of my friends could have possibly just moved on in and crowded other people out. Its not fair at all to them, and it makes me feel like a selfish jerk
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Date: 2002-05-02 06:22 pm (UTC)it sounds fun, when yeli brought it up(i think)
blah... and I managed to completely mess up the point..
Date: 2002-05-02 07:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-05-03 12:26 pm (UTC)