one awful day..

[transomwhiplass]

well first off I would like to say.. there is really nothing wrong with crying.. by witholding it.. you are keeping in all the pain and overwhelming feelings that are trying to escape.. it is a natural body function.. there is a reason for it.. seriously.. did you ever think why you get the urge to cry? It like your bladder (ok.. I know thats gross.. but true).. so.. I have no shame in crying.. and I don't want anyone to undermine it .. I feel a lot better afterwards.. its strange how theraputic a good cry is.. so here was my day:

The day started off with one miserable bang.. I got to school happy and ready for a new week it was around 7:20 and about 7:25 when I got upstairs.. there I found Amanda Lujan who immediately prompted me "so you didn't know we had assembly dress, either?" oh my god.. I could have thrown up if had eaten breakfast... instead I just stood there in shock.. it was one of my worse nightmares come true.. I called my mom who was off to a buisness meeting with clients ".. I am sorry honey.. there is nothing I can do".... I went down stairs to look for someone.. just to.. share my plight I guess.. I was really convinced I wanted to just go to Baker... and say "I am really sorry.. I had no idea.. there are many other girls who didn't either.. but they were lucky to wear the gray skirt and have there blazer stowed away somewhere".. so I went from person to person.. all looked at me as if I was suicidal.. I just didn't want to deal with the embarressment of getting one later.. have a lecture.. I just wanted to confess to my crime.. and get the first detention ever in my life.. I have never gotten a warning.. a conduct cut in middle school (which didn't even equal a detention).. I have always had a glistening gleaming record.. I am absolutely terrified of breaking the rules.. I go into a panic attack if I do by accident.. so anyway.. a lot of girls forgot.. some of the other biggest goody-goodies in the school.. so no detentions.. that was.. incredibly lucky.. who ever messed up my day so horribly.. must have at least had some pity.. but the wrong uniform wasn't the end of it..

the awards ceremony: well.. I thought I was going to get my National Latin Exam medal.. but no.. Mr Zoch was too lazy I guess.. Mizu got an award, perfect attendance.. and Niki got a couple.. I understand how Niki got them.. she is .. she is just a really great student/person/friend.. she deserved them so much.. but.. every year I feel sick as I watch tracy tong get so many awards and god.. merideth robey.. she just deserves the "kiss ass award".. the only reason she got that damn award for world history was because she just loves Rice U sooo much.. all her family goes/went there.. mr. richardson's school.. he is an awesome teacher.. but it takes like.. amazing super powers to resist her ability to suck up.. oh well.. so I didn't get any awards.. go figure..

my day: fitness - beyond dumb.. why did we have to dress out, latin - he picked up the translation.. I have a perfect translation from the internet.. I was just too lazy to copy it down.. crapy, algebra-test tomorrow.. my phone rang 1/2 a time.. it was so embarressing.. what was worse was that it woke me up with a start... -_-;;;, chemistry- probably one good thing.. I got an 88 .. and oh my god.. all the free response right.. I COMPLETELY GUESS HOW TO DO THE FIRST ONE.. *_*.. that was good..
Lunch: I would have liked to spend it with everyone.. but I am really interested in this student discipline board.. now if I can get elected, English - *snore* as always, World History- we were going to learn about WWI... but finally he broke down .. we are so far behind.. he let us vote on which subjects we want to cover .. he is so awesome, Catholicism- I took crappy notes just to so I could sleep between slides... he caught me again, damn I am losing my touch, he slammed on my desk and started acting out another mock sacrament at me.. so far I have been baptised.. confirmed even lightly slapped in this one.. and now I have done reconciliation.. which I still have yet to do IRL.. ha.. I suck as a christian..

After School: Orchestra.. you know how that goes.. then I had to go home.. damn thomas.. didn't even have to take mabel home... YET HE LEAVES ME.. I HATE HIM SO MUCH.. GOD.. mabel keeps threatening to tell him if I don't.. hehe.. mabel I know you will read this.. I just really don't want to say anything to him.. I will just tolerate his ass-holeness for part of one more month.. and I will never ever have to rely on him again..

Laterer: I went to the YMCA.. to accept the job.. yay.. I have to fill out a reccomendation sheet.. this will be funn ~_~.. and I have to take a drug test oh goody..
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Note: The rest of this is to remind Sarah of what she has to do this week

Wednsday: NHS induction (hehe abduction) 7 PM
Thurday: Orchestra pictures - bring dress
Friday: Afterschool work on Decades Project with Katie, Sarah, & Emily
Saturday: Driving lesson

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Sum-up: I think I cried an estimate of about 4 times.. if that makes me seem weak or stupid.. fuck it.. I really dont care.. at least I am not afraid to.. now who is silly?

Comments

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[yeli.livejournal.com]

Ah, take it easy on yourself. ;) I didn't know about assembly dress, either- and my 1st period teacher actually wrote down who did and who didn't, even though, like, half the school didn't. It's coo, it's coo. I remember when forgetting those things used to be a nightmare to me. But then, some really bad things happened to me because my stress levels were too high- health related problems (migranes, constant fatigue, and now, an ulcer), and I'm learning that you've just gotta let some things go.

If you spread yourself too thin, then you're going to end up super stressed out, trying to get everything done. And if you don't stop when you know you need sleep, etc, then your body will stop you.

So.. yeah. Just be careful. ;)

It's not silly that you'd get upset over things- that's your world, and when things go wrong in it, of course that's gonna make you stress. So, that's my two cents. ;)