Trapped in a paradox..
Dec. 28th, 2003 11:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplass"What is your biggest challenge outside of academics?"
I expect the college would recieve a hefty amount of response indirectly related to academics such as - procrastination, trying to hard, etc.
The goal is to come up with a creative challenge that you face and be honest at the same time. Honest. Well what if you have no creative challenges in life, what if the challenges of your life are so boring they make you perpetually blase and keep you trapped in a little bubble of boredom. You won't come off as interesting, they won't accept you. I was thinking "keeping up correspondance with old aquaintances," it has BORING written across it in big, bold red letters. Now I'm faced with a challenge. Yes.. the challenge to come up with a challenge, an interesting one. I'm not crippled, I'm not stupid, I have no real mental disorder. I don't know anyone with problems like that, so "dealing with" someone like that isn't an option either.
You know, actually.. I think I'm on to something. My challenge is finding a feasible solution to boredom.. yes dealing with boredom. Is that a challenge? Will I come off as lazy or unoriginal? Maybe honesty is my challenge, I have a problem making up my mind? I do, but it indecisiveness is more of a curse than a challenge. My challenge is finding a challenge which is a challenge that I fail to find. Its like one of those freaky pictures that is drawn it to itself an infinite number of times.
Who writes these stupid questions? I bet college essay prompt writters just get fits of giggles knowing how they will trap hopeless applicants in a web of their own personal problems.
I hate college applications for the reason that they make me dwell more on myself that I already do. I don't like rooting for answers. I don't like talking to myself, "so hey, sarah.. what do you think about this?" "oh golly, I don't know" "you've never used the word golly before, what possessed you to do it now, if you 'gee whiz' I will kill you" "haha.. catch me sucka'!" Its pathetic. Talking to yourself is bad enough, making jokes to yourself is worse. This whole thing is stupid. Aren't teenagers egotistical enough, shouldn't we be thinking about other people not more about ourselves. Who cares what I think? I barely care what I think. Its a bunch of crap that just oozes out, it has no signifigance or purpose except to "ooze." Who the hell cares?
So I'm stuck between thinking about myself and thinking about what other people want. Weighing the importance of both. I can sit around an evaluate my life for hours, I can "angst".. that is what they want. I DON'T KNOW.
Admissions people have a special corner of hell reserved for them and their sadistic ways.
I expect the college would recieve a hefty amount of response indirectly related to academics such as - procrastination, trying to hard, etc.
The goal is to come up with a creative challenge that you face and be honest at the same time. Honest. Well what if you have no creative challenges in life, what if the challenges of your life are so boring they make you perpetually blase and keep you trapped in a little bubble of boredom. You won't come off as interesting, they won't accept you. I was thinking "keeping up correspondance with old aquaintances," it has BORING written across it in big, bold red letters. Now I'm faced with a challenge. Yes.. the challenge to come up with a challenge, an interesting one. I'm not crippled, I'm not stupid, I have no real mental disorder. I don't know anyone with problems like that, so "dealing with" someone like that isn't an option either.
You know, actually.. I think I'm on to something. My challenge is finding a feasible solution to boredom.. yes dealing with boredom. Is that a challenge? Will I come off as lazy or unoriginal? Maybe honesty is my challenge, I have a problem making up my mind? I do, but it indecisiveness is more of a curse than a challenge. My challenge is finding a challenge which is a challenge that I fail to find. Its like one of those freaky pictures that is drawn it to itself an infinite number of times.
Who writes these stupid questions? I bet college essay prompt writters just get fits of giggles knowing how they will trap hopeless applicants in a web of their own personal problems.
I hate college applications for the reason that they make me dwell more on myself that I already do. I don't like rooting for answers. I don't like talking to myself, "so hey, sarah.. what do you think about this?" "oh golly, I don't know" "you've never used the word golly before, what possessed you to do it now, if you 'gee whiz' I will kill you" "haha.. catch me sucka'!" Its pathetic. Talking to yourself is bad enough, making jokes to yourself is worse. This whole thing is stupid. Aren't teenagers egotistical enough, shouldn't we be thinking about other people not more about ourselves. Who cares what I think? I barely care what I think. Its a bunch of crap that just oozes out, it has no signifigance or purpose except to "ooze." Who the hell cares?
So I'm stuck between thinking about myself and thinking about what other people want. Weighing the importance of both. I can sit around an evaluate my life for hours, I can "angst".. that is what they want. I DON'T KNOW.
Admissions people have a special corner of hell reserved for them and their sadistic ways.
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Date: 2003-12-29 09:56 am (UTC)try to be different; EVERYONE will be writing about procrastination, and all that stuff like you said. even more people will be bragging, and writing things like, "my biggest challenge is helping the mentally ill children that live in my basement," or something like that. you can be innovative. write about how challenges are objective, how the challenges in your life are little, but nevertheless, they are still challenges, and say why you feel that way. write how you feel, they fall for that like crazy. they can tell when essays aren't real (don't know how, but they can). i read my friends' scholarship essays (the ones who didn't get them) and they were just fake. mine, i just wrote something i was passionate about.
take the topic and make it your own; don't let them have it or control what you write about. if you have no challenges, write about it. if you want to write about boredom, write about it. don't worry about what they think of you, cos if you keep that in mind, it'll sound contrived and like you're trying too hard to get their attention. if you write about something you're genuinely interested in, then, they can tell, and they'll love it.
you said once that you feel like you can only draw when you're challenged. write about that--overcoming the challenge of fear, or whatever it is that drives you to do that. how you want to use your artistic abilities, but you're prevented by something in yourself. maybe you fear that when you have no one else to compare your drawings to, your own self-critical eye will hate what you do (this is all purely hypothetical, by the way). just try to figure out why you do the things you do and go from there. honestly, it requires more thinking than actual writing. try to stay away from what you expect other people would write unless you're truly passionate about it.
ack, sorry this was so long, things just kept spilling out. i've read enough bad entrance essays, though, to know that you will be absolutely fine. just relax and don't think about who you're trying to please.
joyce