one long day..

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blargh my day socked.. I had lots of pointless open labs filled with nothing and afterschool my dad grabbed my stuff and left me.. I ended up waiting for my mom an extra hour meanwhile taking a nap on the library steps.. with my face against the wall.. it hurts and is red now because i guess the brick wasnt as soft as a pillow.. before that.. I got the *cough, gag* pleasure.. of sitting with lori petit.. I just tried to ignore her.. she did the same until about 2 minutes before she got picked up.. she started bitching about how her new engine in her car melting... yadda yadda yadda.. blah.. if the wall was really a pillow.. I would have suffocated myselft, does that make any sense? so anyway.. I slept with my face against the wall.. who is the acting teacher? i forgot her name.. I don't know.. so I woke up after a while and she walked by again.. and i was so embaressed "oh! did you have a nice nap.. you were just all sprawled out there and I didnt have the heart to disturb you" talk about o_o.. i dont know.. that my dad was acting like "super jackass man".. he cooked tonight.. god... he can never make anything simple.. he always has to cook chicken (good) in some form of nasty sauce.. with yucky vegetables... gah.. so now I am starving and munching on toast... blah... anyway.. mabel seems to be super concerned with me disliking volvo guy.. I don't know.. we were never friends.. sure I had a "thing" for him for a while.. but that was before I saw that we had a relationship built on analyn... holy god.. how the hell long could that last.. thats all we had in common.. well the biggest thing.. a common dislike for her.. I was her un-willing friend and he was the victim of her affection... I don't know.. so thats all I have to say.. i am tired and worried about everyone... there is like.. a sadness plague flying around.. mizu posts that thing (dont you apologize for it!.. it is about time that you admitted to feeling upset sometimes) and steph has a panic attack in the bathroom.. god.. I am just so concerned for everyone.. everybody needs a break.. me too.. but that doesnt come without finals.. its like.. SAA is trying to make people freak out.. it just sucks right now... things have changed.. I am not pointing fingers or anything.. please dont think so.. but I don't know.. this sorta thing began when the groups merged.. I dont know.. probably an odd coincedence.. but.. its weird in that way.. our little group never had fights ever.. and now i hear all this stuff where so-and-so is angry and so-and-so.. and it saddens me.. i dont know.. just I don't like hearing the back conversations.... I don't like talking bad about my true friends.. I know I have had little things here and there.. and yes analyn.. but well I dont know.. if someone is really my friend and they are doing something.. I have to tell them.. I just can stand being mad at them.. my friends are really the one thing I hold truly precious.. and when even such an innocent thing gets flawed like that.. I have to fix it.. so I guess this is a plead.. guys.. get along.. or try.. I mean.. if you have something against someone.. don't hold on to it... that is what breaks friendships.. but if you know that the person is really your friend.. you shouldnt be afraid to be honest to them.. without the honesty the friendship isnt there.. so dont cling to grudges unless you really want never resolve the issue.. you can get better that way.. but it is temporary and if something else comes up.. it just makes things worse.. does that make sense? I am just really sick of seeing people fight ok.. alright.. and I think we should all be able to talk about what is stressing us out.. no one should hold that in.. if you do.. you go nuts.. so just let it out.. ok.. i am rambling so i will end this... i will see everyone at school tomorrow.. -Sarah