transomwhiplass

So no one came to the concert. I don't blame people. With Steph gone, its not really worth making a big thing over anymore. Its just me. Niki is out of state, Steph understandably probably wants to stay as far away from the band as possible, and Mary always has weekend plans. I was going to go to Chili's but then I almost lost $20, I wasn't hungry, & I realized no one (not a table's worth) of people were going so there was no point. Kinda sad. Everyone gone, oh well. Anyway, I was going to get my brother to leave when I almost lost the money. I went to sneak him away from his freshman stage duties when I went to hold the door open for some guy with chairs. Later, I sort of remember flicking a piece of paper away... somewhere. So from outside, we retraced my steps all the way back to the side stage where under the heavy wood door was my $20. I was sooo happy. I'msuchadipshit. So we went home.

Actually, one friend was there - Nick was getting NHS hours. So we were talking and kind of meandering around the foyer when Him turned the corner. It was sooo weird. He looks so much different, I think I've grown a few inches since freshman year. I just remember looking up to him then, but then again ::cough:: pedestal. But not to get into that.. he started asking us about colleges and stuff. It was actually.. kind of nice. I've always sort of regreted letting communication die with him late freshman year. Funny how that always happens, conversation dies out and it leads to general avoidance... tension.. anger. Its so bizzare. It happens in so many of my relationships and I hate it. All the time, I want to talk to these people.. they used to be incredibly good friends but we haven't talked in so long for no good reason, I feel that if I started talking again it would be like strange and they would wonder "what changed your mind?" I think I give the impression of being a severe, snobby bitch where in actuality I'm just a terrified, over-thinking introvert. So yeah, I regret letting friendships die into these ackward weird avoiding associations but I don't know how to fix it. But you know, it was kind of nice to see him again. He had a huge important influence on my life freshman year and I'm glad that He seems to be getting along well in college. So anyway, He went off with Her and I went back to talking to Nick. Its funny how my relationship with both of them died the same way. Just running out of things to talk about. I don't know..

The concert was pretty good. I think we did well. My mom commented my hair looked pretty awful, it was all lop-sided and St.Agnes-y but it stayed out of my face and I didn't miss a single tough passage. It was good.

I took the SAT today. Again. I'm not sure why. I just figure.. as long as I can, why not? You know? Oh well. It was alright, I don't know if I did better worse. But: 1) I didn't skip a random page of math. 2) There wasn't a barrage of evil math questions like this time. For some reason, they had a satanically hard section that I think I did horribly on last time. I mean, I've taken pre-cal, I've had almost a semester of calculus and it was STILL awful.

Tomorrow, mom and I are going GAPing. We got a card in the mail worth $20 and she got a special discount thing from a coworker who works at GAP part time "for a friend" and I have a gift card. So tomorrow will probably be my major shopping trip of the season.

Bill White - new mayor. Interesting.