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transomwhiplassI don't know what to post. I've been pretty carefree, besides being sick at home for 4 days. I was actually shocked at how little there is to make up considering the time. After all, the one test, one major quiz, one lil' quiz could have all happened on one day. So, I lucked out.
The newspaper is in shambles. Our writers are atrocious. Absolutely awful. I want to lock them in a closet so they don't hurt themselves. Ugh.
I've had so much time to think lately. That is my problem, I think WAY too much. I can never jump in and do stuff; every aspect of my life requires serious analysis unless time does not allow, in which case, I rush through it. My method of living day to day isn't working out, it's a hassle and I feel like I'm letting my life slip through my fingers. Everyday, I just want school to be over, I want to be free of SAA and the daily charades that entail just being there.
Friday, I was informed by Ms. Thompson that I will not be in the year book because I didn't get my senior pictures done. Yes, my fault. Oops. I'm sorry I didn't work it in between my senior service project, two summer reading books, and 10 page research paper. I'm sorry Ms. Fucking-Thompson that you have to do the god forsaken senior pages THIS EARLY IN THE YEAR. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT LATER.. OBVIOUSLY YOU COVER SPRING POWDER PUFF!! This is the thing I don't get. Our school advertises adamently "COLLEGE PREP ACADEMY." You get to your senior year, the FALL of your senior year when all the pieces fall into place and you are required to kick it into overdrive when the COLLEGE PREP school dumps a barrage of shit on you. They want your "style show" forms and your cap/gown order form and your senior picture and senior surveys, multiple senior quotes, *don't mix it up with your multiple reccomendation forms,please*, your service project forms, two 5+ page essays, out of class test, stock market project, philosophy test, reese's sales, and whatever elective work you have (::cough:: newspaper,drawings,computerprograms ::cough::). Hm.. it makes me wonder, "WHY THE HELL CAN'T ANY OF THIS WAIT TILL SPRING?!?!?!" For a PREP school and the amount that they preach about "understanding" and making "college applying easier", they sure do lie a lot. I am so incredibly frustrated. I know in spring I will be bored silly, why can't I do some of this now. To dump such a cruel amount of random (but necessary) pieces of paper on college seniors in fall is a cruel joke that will, hopefully, send responsible parties to the flaming clutches of hell where they will roast in the bonfires created by flames curling from their acursed paperwork. If I don't get into a college, I'm suing the school for ruining my chances. I'm sick of trying to graduate and get into college. I'm just so tired. I just want to quit.
Enough bitch ranting.. time to be vague..
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I can totally envision what I want most in life at this time. I don't know if this is a totally shallow desire or what but it occupies 50% of my thoughts (or at least what isn't spent obsessing about school stuff). I don't think that it is unreasonable. I'm have no idea where to file it as far as goals go, short or long term. I don't know, I wish that it, along with everything else, wasn't blaring in my face on a daily basis.
Ugh. I'm getting loopy, well.. I've been loopy this entire post. That is why it is chock full of bad grammar and passive voice. Too tired, sleep now.
The newspaper is in shambles. Our writers are atrocious. Absolutely awful. I want to lock them in a closet so they don't hurt themselves. Ugh.
I've had so much time to think lately. That is my problem, I think WAY too much. I can never jump in and do stuff; every aspect of my life requires serious analysis unless time does not allow, in which case, I rush through it. My method of living day to day isn't working out, it's a hassle and I feel like I'm letting my life slip through my fingers. Everyday, I just want school to be over, I want to be free of SAA and the daily charades that entail just being there.
Friday, I was informed by Ms. Thompson that I will not be in the year book because I didn't get my senior pictures done. Yes, my fault. Oops. I'm sorry I didn't work it in between my senior service project, two summer reading books, and 10 page research paper. I'm sorry Ms. Fucking-Thompson that you have to do the god forsaken senior pages THIS EARLY IN THE YEAR. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT LATER.. OBVIOUSLY YOU COVER SPRING POWDER PUFF!! This is the thing I don't get. Our school advertises adamently "COLLEGE PREP ACADEMY." You get to your senior year, the FALL of your senior year when all the pieces fall into place and you are required to kick it into overdrive when the COLLEGE PREP school dumps a barrage of shit on you. They want your "style show" forms and your cap/gown order form and your senior picture and senior surveys, multiple senior quotes, *don't mix it up with your multiple reccomendation forms,please*, your service project forms, two 5+ page essays, out of class test, stock market project, philosophy test, reese's sales, and whatever elective work you have (::cough:: newspaper,drawings,computerprograms ::cough::). Hm.. it makes me wonder, "WHY THE HELL CAN'T ANY OF THIS WAIT TILL SPRING?!?!?!" For a PREP school and the amount that they preach about "understanding" and making "college applying easier", they sure do lie a lot. I am so incredibly frustrated. I know in spring I will be bored silly, why can't I do some of this now. To dump such a cruel amount of random (but necessary) pieces of paper on college seniors in fall is a cruel joke that will, hopefully, send responsible parties to the flaming clutches of hell where they will roast in the bonfires created by flames curling from their acursed paperwork. If I don't get into a college, I'm suing the school for ruining my chances. I'm sick of trying to graduate and get into college. I'm just so tired. I just want to quit.
Enough bitch ranting.. time to be vague..
-----
I can totally envision what I want most in life at this time. I don't know if this is a totally shallow desire or what but it occupies 50% of my thoughts (or at least what isn't spent obsessing about school stuff). I don't think that it is unreasonable. I'm have no idea where to file it as far as goals go, short or long term. I don't know, I wish that it, along with everything else, wasn't blaring in my face on a daily basis.
Ugh. I'm getting loopy, well.. I've been loopy this entire post. That is why it is chock full of bad grammar and passive voice. Too tired, sleep now.
