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[transomwhiplass]

I've been out for 3 days. Mom keeps asking, so are you going back or are you dropping out?

Oh god.. I would drop out if it wasn't the failure to completely actualize my potency to graduate and move on which is sooo very close to being fully actualized.

Yes, I have been studying for philosophy. x_x;; *HATE HATE* *STAB STAB*

Uhm.. yeah.. almost 2 AM and status on Hamlet essay (RD due tomorrow, requirements make me wonder what the dif. between RD & final is): 0%

Ugh. Maybe my psychological condition will cause me to be at the mercy of the toxic black mold in my house which I'm sure is making me ill. I know leaving the house, hence going to school will cure my ailment but what's the point? I think it would be funny to only go on Friday.

So far:

- Make up Monday's Econ quiz (supposed Über-bitchen hard)
- Make up Tuesday's Eng. reading quiz
- Turn in Friday problems (hahaaha)
- Get notes for all classes
- Do entire facial features drawing exercise
- Get graduation announcement document
- Turn in NHS check/Fritsch rec.
- Check to see if I can still do the thing this weekend (missed training, but did it last year); decide if plausible given load of makeup and next week's work that still needs doing.
- Paper edits/Laura decompression (that girl has 150723407230247% killing rights, I left her for 3 days with the demons and the crisis of edit day)

I'm so horribly depressed. I forgot to mention this, as petty and stupid as it sounds to most. Throughout my SAA career, the word "Über" has been used in my vocabulary more than it should have. I don't remember where/when I picked it up but I KNOW that it was a) From outside of school in a movie like Monty Python (like if not actually MP). Its usage was restricted to the group. Remember the Über-Cult?? MY INVENTION.. well Alex helped one insomnia ridden night.. but the fact is. Über was sooo exclusive to people I knew, and as far as I was concerned in my self-righteous, narcissistic, & conceited head.. it was my word. Niki and I were driving home from the atrocity they called "They Matrix" when we heard some girls from SAA talking to Atom Smasher (ugh that guy is such a freak) on the radio. They chatted about the location of the school and blah blah.. so Mr. Smasher could come stalk people at our school, etc. Right before they left they said something was Über-cool and I let out a scream that almost made Niki crash the car. WTF? Then.. to make things WORSE.. Atom was like "Über..hm.. maybe I should use that after every phrase." Ugh.. now I hear it everywhere. As far as I'm concerned, if you aren't part of the Über Pagan faith, you don't grasp the significance of the word when you use it, thus.. you are a heretic and Ültimate-Poser. Actually the fact that the word is gaining usage doesn't bother me more than the fact that my favorite word was released into the world by some stupid sophomores to the freaking pedophile/serial creep DJ Atom Smasher. This is not the way I would have released my first born into the world. Oh well. That is Sarah's bitch rant of the day. She knows she doesn't own the word and doesn't even really know the exact definition in German (it takes a variety of meanings I think, like "above" and stuff like that). Annnnyyyway..

I don't know about this essay. Maybe I can type some stuff and turn it in for some mercy credit - I've been sick, that is why it sucks. Maybe I won't do it.. not go to school.. blah.. I'm in a vicious circle (JEOPARDY QUESTION!) ^_^

Night.