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transomwhiplassI'm so tired. So very very tired. I have so much to do and I am so far behind.
Everyone is telling me to take a day off. Including people I don't know very well. While it sounds appealing, I would probably squander it and just get farther behind.
I'm happy that I know smart people. I'm happy that the smart people think I'm smart. We are all a bunch of mutually respecting smarties in the smart class being smartie pants and moaning about insuffucient smartiness bashing those smartier than ourselves.
Pick up the insomnia?
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Niki is sick. I never see Steph. Mary is kind of emotionally distraught and I feel partially to blame for my *disapproval*. I feel bad.. I've never seen her so incredibly upset, I just worry for her. I worry for all my friends.. all the time.. for the tiniest to hugest things. I'm fiercely overprotective (oldest child [of 4] syndrome), I'm lacking sleep, trying to make jokes and remain serious, etc. I think my approach could have been more tactful than "I hate him and thats all I'm going to say about it." Looking back I wish I would have said, "He made a very poor first impression. Since I do not know him at all, and what I do know about him is from hearsay and specuation (none of which was good, most supported his poor first impression), I have no means to judge. All I know is that this affection that he is expressing is coming on too strong and fast in my opinion. His age and past experience worries me as do his moral values. I want Mary to be happy and find someone who genuinely cares about her amazing personality and qualities but his intentions seem a bit in the dark based on what I know about him (very little). I want her to be careful and not to get hurt emotionally/physically or feel intimidated or pressured by him at any time. I do want her to be happy but I want her to be 102134080248% sure of his intentions and to have a general sense of the purpose and direction of the relationship because the purpose seems more like a 'fling' and the showering of gifts brings me to wonder if they will serve as back up for pressure. But if Mary is sure that he makes her happy and his intentions are true, then he cannot be all bad." So there is my more tactful and precise response.
I so wish I had a time machine. I would have gone back and signed up for an open lab and a blow off theology, saved my phone from being scratched, and prevented that fan from causing the Cubs to lose. Oh well. No rest for the weary, ay?
I have more stuff to do before I get to sleep for a few hours.
Everyone is telling me to take a day off. Including people I don't know very well. While it sounds appealing, I would probably squander it and just get farther behind.
I'm happy that I know smart people. I'm happy that the smart people think I'm smart. We are all a bunch of mutually respecting smarties in the smart class being smartie pants and moaning about insuffucient smartiness bashing those smartier than ourselves.
Pick up the insomnia?
----
Niki is sick. I never see Steph. Mary is kind of emotionally distraught and I feel partially to blame for my *disapproval*. I feel bad.. I've never seen her so incredibly upset, I just worry for her. I worry for all my friends.. all the time.. for the tiniest to hugest things. I'm fiercely overprotective (oldest child [of 4] syndrome), I'm lacking sleep, trying to make jokes and remain serious, etc. I think my approach could have been more tactful than "I hate him and thats all I'm going to say about it." Looking back I wish I would have said, "He made a very poor first impression. Since I do not know him at all, and what I do know about him is from hearsay and specuation (none of which was good, most supported his poor first impression), I have no means to judge. All I know is that this affection that he is expressing is coming on too strong and fast in my opinion. His age and past experience worries me as do his moral values. I want Mary to be happy and find someone who genuinely cares about her amazing personality and qualities but his intentions seem a bit in the dark based on what I know about him (very little). I want her to be careful and not to get hurt emotionally/physically or feel intimidated or pressured by him at any time. I do want her to be happy but I want her to be 102134080248% sure of his intentions and to have a general sense of the purpose and direction of the relationship because the purpose seems more like a 'fling' and the showering of gifts brings me to wonder if they will serve as back up for pressure. But if Mary is sure that he makes her happy and his intentions are true, then he cannot be all bad." So there is my more tactful and precise response.
I so wish I had a time machine. I would have gone back and signed up for an open lab and a blow off theology, saved my phone from being scratched, and prevented that fan from causing the Cubs to lose. Oh well. No rest for the weary, ay?
I have more stuff to do before I get to sleep for a few hours.
