flibbity jibbit and a bunch of silly lists

[transomwhiplass]

ha.. this is message 6 today.. I feel like such a freak.. this is what happens when I wake up before 11 on a sunday.. I just keep waiting and waiting for something better to do but nothing happens.. so.. I've been buzzing around LJ reading random journals.... it can be really enlightening.. sometimes you find people that make you feel better about yourself... and sometimes you find people that are so bloody happy with their lives they could just spit.. oh well.. I know there was a reason for me posting again today.. geez.. and FOR THE LOVE OF GOD AND MY SANITY WILL SOMEBODY GET ONLINE OTHER THAN THE ORCHESTRA PEOPLE THAT SEEM TO HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN SIT AND RELAY ELECTRONIC GOSSIP TO ME... on a tangent.. I have another idea on what i want to be when i grow up ^_^.. I want to be (well, what my godfather does).. god.. does it have a title? i dont know if its a stock broker.. but basically he works for a firm where to get an account.. you have to invest at least $1,000,000 then he puts it in Stock A or Stock B, etc. hopefully, he makes you a good profit.. then the firm gets a sweet little chunk of that.. that is what I want to do.. play with money all day.. yes.. a sweet life.. especially since he has a house in Downer's Grove, the FANCY-ASS subarbs of Ohio that he and my godmother custom designed with little holes and secret doors not to mention the hill, well 4 house he owns in the virgin islands on the lovely little one called St. Thomas.. oh.. and yes.. he has yacht... he... and his kids.. are really dorky.. but that is absolutely the life I want to have.. oh.. yeah.. he is retired now... works 1-2 a week if he wants.. he isnt even 50 yet.. ^_^.... so anyway.. that is the life I want:

*Large cash flow
*Not a messy job
*A secretary
*Health Benfits
*Clients
*Multiple houses
*My own frikkin' yacht
*Time to raise some offspirng at a point
*A dog
*A little garden
*An office
*etc..

yes... so when I said I wanted to be a doctor.. well a part of me still wants to.. I think I am really selfish.. I never wanted to be a doctor to help people.. but for two reasons.. doctors are assumed to be really smart and they have the potential to make a good wad of cash.. after the med school bills are paid off and you get off that scrawny little intern pay.. I think what has drawn me to the point is that:

A) I am good at science.. but not THAT good
B) I am good at lots of stuff.. I don't have one strength.. but I do have lots of weaknesses
C) I don't know if I would be right for the life of a doctor: long hours, no sleep, no time for anyone, no life, you trade yours for the lives of many others.. yeah.. some doctors have some kids and get married.. but when I have kids.. I don't want them to be raised by a babysitter.. and know me as that lady that rushes out of the house with a cup of coffee..

but anyway.. when you plan for the future.. you have to plan for anything.. I don't know if I will always want to be what I just proposed.. I have been really choosy about this and college.. everyone is says:

1) Go where you will be happy
2) Choose something that will make you happy
3) Pick a career that plays to your strengths
4) Choose a place where you will be able to grow intellectually and emotionally
5) A buncha mumbo-jumbo BS just like the above...

the problems with these "suggestions" are that honestly.. I dont have real any real strengths, talents.. and NO.. seriously.. I have a couple of interests but honestly I wouldnt die if you told me I could never do it again... I can make myself happy in lots of places... ok.. **STUPID SCIENTIFIC ANALOGY ALERT** comparable to solids who have to fit to their containers.. I am more of a liquid that will just conform over time **END ALERT** so anyway.. right now.. I guess I am picking for name.. I know.. that is the NUMERO UNO SIN in picking a college.. but right now.. I don't know... what do I want out of a college? Grades good enough to get me into the job and grad school I choose and "ooh's and ahh's" out of everyone I tell "I went to X as an undergrad" ... thats what I want.. other than that... well.. I am sure there are other little things I would prefer... but right now.. I'm just.. blabbing... so.. *smile* be happy... 2 years.... ok... I feel a HUGE tangent coming on.. but I will hold it back .. and end this silly little post... so be happy