I'm so confused...
Apr. 14th, 2003 08:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassBelle didn't get into NHS.. and I feel so disillusioned. I can't even tell you. It's not even me, but it has totally shocked me and I feel so loopy and disoriented.
I feel really bad. She has great grades, leadership (Stuco),etc. She didn't make it. I was 100% sure she was in done deal. It rattles me, because they don't think she is good enough.. I'm definetly not good enough. I got in my stupid default, true cause unknown, no rumors confirmed. It just..... it really sucks. I don't know what to do, but I'm really upset for her. She deserved it, and got screwed. I'm presuming that it is a teacher that black-balled her. She had everything, people with equal and less got in. She is high-spirited.. I think that is why some teachers don't like her. I don't know. I know this is really hard for her, but this reminds me of a story my dad told me.
My only Uncle was (and is) really smart. He was Student Body something (back when everyone ran for president and positions were assigned as 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th: president, vice president, secretary, treasurer, respectively). He was editor of the paper. He had fantastic grades.. but his intelligence became his weakness. My uncle has the impeccable ability to see right through people to their largest weakness. Back in his adolescence, he used it to his advantage. As it so happened.. he pointed out the flaw of one teacher.. and forever on, that guy hated him. As it so happened, my Uncle applied for NHS and it all eventually fell down to this guy. He black-balled my uncle. He didn't make NHS only because this guy didn't like him. No one else had a problem, only him. Well, it didn't matter.. my uncle went to Harvard and graduated Magna or Summa (don't remember) Cum Laude. That was amazing considering my uncle got totally wigged out on marijuana & insomnia.. he became an honest to god, schtizo that my dad had to move to Boston to make sure he finished college. And he did... with high honors. So.. the moral of this situation is that: NHS is a sack of crap and no one really cares. It's a corrupt organization at the end left up to the personal bias' of the selection team. All you can to is better hope the shit that they know and love you.
I knew all this when I got my rejection letter. It still burned and hurt. My school didn't think I was one of the best & brightest. I was a failure. I was a dishonor. Then it became a self reflective trip on where I went wrong. Why wasn't I good enough. I felt broken & not whole.
Wow.. I can't wait to get college rejection letters.
Anyway, you know what.. something happened and they admitted everyone. I am like 95% sure I wrote a post the day I got both letters. I'm going to dig them up and put links here. Fun Stuff.
I feel really bad. She has great grades, leadership (Stuco),etc. She didn't make it. I was 100% sure she was in done deal. It rattles me, because they don't think she is good enough.. I'm definetly not good enough. I got in my stupid default, true cause unknown, no rumors confirmed. It just..... it really sucks. I don't know what to do, but I'm really upset for her. She deserved it, and got screwed. I'm presuming that it is a teacher that black-balled her. She had everything, people with equal and less got in. She is high-spirited.. I think that is why some teachers don't like her. I don't know. I know this is really hard for her, but this reminds me of a story my dad told me.
My only Uncle was (and is) really smart. He was Student Body something (back when everyone ran for president and positions were assigned as 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th: president, vice president, secretary, treasurer, respectively). He was editor of the paper. He had fantastic grades.. but his intelligence became his weakness. My uncle has the impeccable ability to see right through people to their largest weakness. Back in his adolescence, he used it to his advantage. As it so happened.. he pointed out the flaw of one teacher.. and forever on, that guy hated him. As it so happened, my Uncle applied for NHS and it all eventually fell down to this guy. He black-balled my uncle. He didn't make NHS only because this guy didn't like him. No one else had a problem, only him. Well, it didn't matter.. my uncle went to Harvard and graduated Magna or Summa (don't remember) Cum Laude. That was amazing considering my uncle got totally wigged out on marijuana & insomnia.. he became an honest to god, schtizo that my dad had to move to Boston to make sure he finished college. And he did... with high honors. So.. the moral of this situation is that: NHS is a sack of crap and no one really cares. It's a corrupt organization at the end left up to the personal bias' of the selection team. All you can to is better hope the shit that they know and love you.
I knew all this when I got my rejection letter. It still burned and hurt. My school didn't think I was one of the best & brightest. I was a failure. I was a dishonor. Then it became a self reflective trip on where I went wrong. Why wasn't I good enough. I felt broken & not whole.
Wow.. I can't wait to get college rejection letters.
Anyway, you know what.. something happened and they admitted everyone. I am like 95% sure I wrote a post the day I got both letters. I'm going to dig them up and put links here. Fun Stuff.
