OMG OMG OMG SPRING BREAK OMG
Mar. 13th, 2003 10:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassFinally.. oh.. my.. god..
I cannot express how much I thought I was, literally, dying within these last few weeks. I actually felt my soul fading and was begining to lose the will to carry on day to day activities. It was SO bad, I would be like walking on down/up the steps and having morbid/philosophical thoughts such as:
"What is keeping me from collapsing in dying right here"
"What would happen if I just, like, fell down and rolled down the stairs"
"What is the point of climbing these stairs, what I'm I going to, certainly its not Latin class that is motivating me.. what is"
"I don't recall telling myself to move"
"How come I spend so much time thinking about this"
the list gets utterly pathetic.. anyway.. its finally paid off. I need this so bad. I've decided how I'm going to use what days I have at home (leaving for what I'm calling "Backwash, Florida" on Wednesday). I'm going to use it, it intelligent-dignified terms, pursuing career options and researching my interests for future gains, goals, and college options. In real terms, I'm going to spend it photoshop-ing and playing video games. LMAO.. but true!
I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just sort of realized something out of thin air that seemed so entirely obvious that I couldn't believe it. I always do my best thinking in the bathroom, it is my intellectual center and the temple of my Chi.. hahaha, no but seriously. Anyway, I realized what the things I like most are:
- Movies
- Video games
- Photoshop/computer design
- Think up ideas that could be revolutionary (at least I think they are)
- Kids
- Never growing up (really) ever
and it struck me.. I can combine these things. I think I want to go to school to be a computer artist and possibly pursue options in video game design and maybe dabble in the 3-D movie department, I'm determined to get an Oscar for even the most menial of tasks. Anyway, I'm thrilled, I could stick with it. It's an industry constanly moving and developing.. maybe... maybe my calling?? For the moment I'm really excited.. wooooo
Ok.. my website layout is so old its killing me.. I have to go think of some new ideas before my TV show is on. mwahahaha
I cannot express how much I thought I was, literally, dying within these last few weeks. I actually felt my soul fading and was begining to lose the will to carry on day to day activities. It was SO bad, I would be like walking on down/up the steps and having morbid/philosophical thoughts such as:
"What is keeping me from collapsing in dying right here"
"What would happen if I just, like, fell down and rolled down the stairs"
"What is the point of climbing these stairs, what I'm I going to, certainly its not Latin class that is motivating me.. what is"
"I don't recall telling myself to move"
"How come I spend so much time thinking about this"
the list gets utterly pathetic.. anyway.. its finally paid off. I need this so bad. I've decided how I'm going to use what days I have at home (leaving for what I'm calling "Backwash, Florida" on Wednesday). I'm going to use it, it intelligent-dignified terms, pursuing career options and researching my interests for future gains, goals, and college options. In real terms, I'm going to spend it photoshop-ing and playing video games. LMAO.. but true!
I was in the bathroom brushing my teeth when I just sort of realized something out of thin air that seemed so entirely obvious that I couldn't believe it. I always do my best thinking in the bathroom, it is my intellectual center and the temple of my Chi.. hahaha, no but seriously. Anyway, I realized what the things I like most are:
- Movies
- Video games
- Photoshop/computer design
- Think up ideas that could be revolutionary (at least I think they are)
- Kids
- Never growing up (really) ever
and it struck me.. I can combine these things. I think I want to go to school to be a computer artist and possibly pursue options in video game design and maybe dabble in the 3-D movie department, I'm determined to get an Oscar for even the most menial of tasks. Anyway, I'm thrilled, I could stick with it. It's an industry constanly moving and developing.. maybe... maybe my calling?? For the moment I'm really excited.. wooooo
Ok.. my website layout is so old its killing me.. I have to go think of some new ideas before my TV show is on. mwahahaha
