Feeling mellow..
Jan. 26th, 2003 07:28 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassToday has been so laid back for me..
I woke up noonish cos' my daddy was leaving for the Netherlands this morning. It wasn't that exciting, but basically I never got out of my PJ's today. Hahaha, I am such a bum. I watched the Bulls v. Rockets game. I AM SO PISSED OFF! Or, I was. ^^;; The Bulls got 2 points in the last second of the game, they won. I was upset, Anthony was being such a freak dancing around and crap, "IN YO' FACE, BI-ATCH!" I'm a recently converted basketball fan, I watch YAO! It's a conflict of interest as we live in Houston, but I was born in Chicago. Haha, but the Bulls don't have any of the stars, they just have that "legacy." Hrm, oh well. It was a homegame for the Bulls, and super close, I won't let it get to me, too much, that is.
Football is on, but I really couldn't care less. Anthony is filling out his high school applications, I really hope he gets accepted to both. He want's to go to St. Thomas, but from viewing the Strake application I think he has better chances there. He is a smart boy, I read pieces of his essay prewriting, it was pretty intelligent. I hope he gets in, I really hope he does.
I'm beginning to get semi-freaked out about SAT, I think I should just register now for like.. 2 or 3 this year. My mom is like, you should take one in June and one in the fall if you need it. That sounds stupid to me. I also need to register for 1 or 2 ACT's and get the lowdown on SAT II's. I hate this process, I hate it so much. I wish I was certain about SOMETHING. I wish I knew what I wanted to do, then I could look at the colleges that are good for that area of study, then I could find their requirements, and live up to them. Instead, I'm shooting a machine gun at hundreds of targets with a blind fold, hoping to hit a few.
Anthony just rollerbladed around me wearing red shirts, he really seems to like St. Thomas. They gave him a free Eagles t-shirt there, they also had student testimonials. Strake gave him a pamphlet and a talk with the priest. Hmmm, t-shirt.. pamphlet.. t-shirt.. pamphlet.. t-shirt & pamphlet.. pamphlet. Durr.. whatever. Oh, did I mention, a free copy of the newspaper AND a special flyer-edition made SPECIFICALLY for the open house? St. Thomas clearly is more enticing.
I don't know how much homework I have, I don't think there is much, or at least I hope not.
I have a lot on many plates right now. Instead of working away on what I have, I'm chatting and stuff and letting to food get cold and moldy. I know, tacky metaphor, but it applies. Second semester has just started and they want us to choose senior classes. I don't know what I want to do, I really have to choose a math and a science, oh and an English. Not to mention Theology, electives, etc. Then there is college things, and taking standardized tests, oh, and I also need to keep up with the present. So what am I doing about all of this? Absolutely nothing, and I know I will regret it. I think my reason for this whole college procrastination thing is that I burned myself out frosh year. I was set then, I wanted to be a doctor with my entire person, and I wanted to go Ivy-league-ish to a place with a big name. I collected every pamphlet known to man, I had several college books, even "How to Get into Medical School." Hm, the next year, I decided I did NOT want to be in school for all of my 20s wasting away, competing in somewhat "cut-throat" behavior with thousands of other people my age. One of those drones in the army of "pre-meds." Knowing that AFTER all this, I would be a resident for 7 years or more, and poor and severly in debt. This also screws with the fact that my parents (who were supportive through this puruit) had to put 3 other kids through high school/undergraduate school. Oh, and I know I want a family. Being a doctor and having a family does NOT coordinate. You barely see you kids ever, and that sucks, then they hate you, then you are miserable for the rest of your life. So now I am in a really undecided position. Do I want to be a scientist or a designer or a lawyer or something totally different. I am spread way to far I think, I just can never pick one thing that I am good at. I'm pretty good at everything, but not fantastic, I don't think. I want to make the responsible decision for me, but that is so hard.
Go download Supergrass - "Allright" it always puts me in a happy mood, no matter how much I want to tear my hair out and then go off to rape and pillage.
OH, did I mention service projects? Yummy yummy, more things to think about.
"DEAAAAAAAAATH!"
I woke up noonish cos' my daddy was leaving for the Netherlands this morning. It wasn't that exciting, but basically I never got out of my PJ's today. Hahaha, I am such a bum. I watched the Bulls v. Rockets game. I AM SO PISSED OFF! Or, I was. ^^;; The Bulls got 2 points in the last second of the game, they won. I was upset, Anthony was being such a freak dancing around and crap, "IN YO' FACE, BI-ATCH!" I'm a recently converted basketball fan, I watch YAO! It's a conflict of interest as we live in Houston, but I was born in Chicago. Haha, but the Bulls don't have any of the stars, they just have that "legacy." Hrm, oh well. It was a homegame for the Bulls, and super close, I won't let it get to me, too much, that is.
Football is on, but I really couldn't care less. Anthony is filling out his high school applications, I really hope he gets accepted to both. He want's to go to St. Thomas, but from viewing the Strake application I think he has better chances there. He is a smart boy, I read pieces of his essay prewriting, it was pretty intelligent. I hope he gets in, I really hope he does.
I'm beginning to get semi-freaked out about SAT, I think I should just register now for like.. 2 or 3 this year. My mom is like, you should take one in June and one in the fall if you need it. That sounds stupid to me. I also need to register for 1 or 2 ACT's and get the lowdown on SAT II's. I hate this process, I hate it so much. I wish I was certain about SOMETHING. I wish I knew what I wanted to do, then I could look at the colleges that are good for that area of study, then I could find their requirements, and live up to them. Instead, I'm shooting a machine gun at hundreds of targets with a blind fold, hoping to hit a few.
Anthony just rollerbladed around me wearing red shirts, he really seems to like St. Thomas. They gave him a free Eagles t-shirt there, they also had student testimonials. Strake gave him a pamphlet and a talk with the priest. Hmmm, t-shirt.. pamphlet.. t-shirt.. pamphlet.. t-shirt & pamphlet.. pamphlet. Durr.. whatever. Oh, did I mention, a free copy of the newspaper AND a special flyer-edition made SPECIFICALLY for the open house? St. Thomas clearly is more enticing.
I don't know how much homework I have, I don't think there is much, or at least I hope not.
I have a lot on many plates right now. Instead of working away on what I have, I'm chatting and stuff and letting to food get cold and moldy. I know, tacky metaphor, but it applies. Second semester has just started and they want us to choose senior classes. I don't know what I want to do, I really have to choose a math and a science, oh and an English. Not to mention Theology, electives, etc. Then there is college things, and taking standardized tests, oh, and I also need to keep up with the present. So what am I doing about all of this? Absolutely nothing, and I know I will regret it. I think my reason for this whole college procrastination thing is that I burned myself out frosh year. I was set then, I wanted to be a doctor with my entire person, and I wanted to go Ivy-league-ish to a place with a big name. I collected every pamphlet known to man, I had several college books, even "How to Get into Medical School." Hm, the next year, I decided I did NOT want to be in school for all of my 20s wasting away, competing in somewhat "cut-throat" behavior with thousands of other people my age. One of those drones in the army of "pre-meds." Knowing that AFTER all this, I would be a resident for 7 years or more, and poor and severly in debt. This also screws with the fact that my parents (who were supportive through this puruit) had to put 3 other kids through high school/undergraduate school. Oh, and I know I want a family. Being a doctor and having a family does NOT coordinate. You barely see you kids ever, and that sucks, then they hate you, then you are miserable for the rest of your life. So now I am in a really undecided position. Do I want to be a scientist or a designer or a lawyer or something totally different. I am spread way to far I think, I just can never pick one thing that I am good at. I'm pretty good at everything, but not fantastic, I don't think. I want to make the responsible decision for me, but that is so hard.
Go download Supergrass - "Allright" it always puts me in a happy mood, no matter how much I want to tear my hair out and then go off to rape and pillage.
OH, did I mention service projects? Yummy yummy, more things to think about.
"DEAAAAAAAAATH!"
