it ate my post..
Dec. 14th, 2002 01:08 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
transomwhiplassOut of all the things that are killing me... the whole post about things taxing me emotionally.. it ironically eats it and adds to my post.... it ate it because I posted one post while writing this one.. something about the time being wrong... I hate myself... no one understands... is this some kind of signal that I should keep my pain to myself until in consumes me and kills me?
I am the person the masses lean on
yet there is no friend left standing to console me..
It deleted something so meaningful... to me... to my well-being... it deleted its existance.. as if I'm not allowed to bear my soul in such fashion, no individual deserves to be exposed to its horror... ironically, this deleted post is now a symbol of what it was about, me.. the deletion of my existance... all just a technicality in the system...
I am the person the masses lean on
yet there is no friend left standing to console me..
It deleted something so meaningful... to me... to my well-being... it deleted its existance.. as if I'm not allowed to bear my soul in such fashion, no individual deserves to be exposed to its horror... ironically, this deleted post is now a symbol of what it was about, me.. the deletion of my existance... all just a technicality in the system...
