damn netscape!

Netscape sucks.. I have to use it in the stupid library because they have UBER fucked their computers: no right click, no "my computer", no start button, and I cant even type the PROPER uber U... stupid stupid stupid!! jesus.. these computers are the hugest pieces of shit on the planet...

it smells so disgusting in here... it smells like the chemical they use to clean up puke.. that nasty sweet smell... it makes me sick.. I feel like throwing up now... gahhhhhhhhhh...

WOW... but this is ONE of THREE open labs.. how SCORE is that?? Mr. Zoch, Ms. Fritsch, and Ms. Ashmore!! Doooooooode.... WTF.......... that is 3 in a row......... LMFAO.. I have NOTHING to do.. no homework... jesus....... what a waste of time... maybe I should sleep somewhere.. but I'm not tired.. I only had 3 hours of sleep.. that is so weird.. eh.. oh well?? Hm.. I need to think of something to do.. web surfing is out because no IE would make it pointless.. maybe I will hide out in the computer lab, work on journalism.. ahh..that reminds me

poor lauren mesa.. her computer is being so mean to her.. it totally scrambled her page.. and pagemaker is being a huge bitch... she enlisted me to fix stuff.. but it was hard to instruct her on how... maybe I will sneak over and work on it.. save katie some time.. I also need to fix my page.. i noticed some mistakes.. haha.. oh well.. easily fixable things...

my essay... well.. as I handwrote it.. I wrote very passionately.. I think.. I was quite proud of it.. I never gave it a once over.. typing it .. well.. it sounded like jumble.. but.. eh.. I didn't know that it was NOT DUE DUE today.. that freaked me.. I thought she might slip in an extra day.. but I wasn't willing to bet.. but yeah.. we do.. so I need to check several things:

- grammar all together
- those mistakes the spell/grammar check doesn't catch
- see if I prove my thesis
- make sure my commentary is meaningfull

I think that I will get an ok grade.. crap.. I shouldn't predict.. my luck hasn't been good a predicting.. "wow.. I think I did ok" - 65.. "oh god... i screwed up so bad.. but it was the hardest test of the year!!" -97 uhm.. yeah.. so.. I have the following going for me:

- It is 5 pages long
- I did a topic that I don't think anyone else did
- It is chock-full of quotes

I started writing at 12.. I SERIOUSLY COULDN'T THINK UNTIL THEN.. IT IS SO SCARY.. I had the whole day.. well.. sort of.. i woke up at 2 on Sunday... but I had that whole time... and I kept thinking "well.. I can do my essay... plenty of time to write it..yup.. I'll do it... wait.. just after this" I get sucked into the same trap... I recognize my habit and the trap that I set for myself, here is my daily routine:

4-5 PM - Get home
Home-Dinner - On computer
Dinner
TV - real tv and reruns.. till like.. 11:30 (DHARMA AND GREG!!! EEEEEEEEEH!)
Shower haha.. by then its 12..
Homework... for 1-2 hours
Sleep at either 1 or 2 AM

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... it happens everyday.. but that is what happened sunday too.. I had A LOT OF TIME.. but I just had.. this mental block.. you know how they say the hardest thing to do is start? well that applies.. the only thing that can nudge me over that edge is to feel the pressure and panic burn... then I start-finish... so yeah.. it took 2 and a half hours to write my paper... then I spent half an hour typing half of it.. which was completed 3 hours later when I woke up at 6.. and finally finished on the car ride to school... isn't that fantastic??

me hungy.

but in conclusion... hey its done!! pretty much.. I did it to the point that I would feel "alright" turning it in for real.. so that is limited work.. and I have no homework tonight? right? welll.. supposed to have the last pre-cal test tomorrow.. and a latin translation.. gah... ok.. so like.. a great portion... $10 says I won't do it or study!! She should move the test though..

hrm.. this is getting long and rambly... I have to give my secret santa his gift... I pulled it together at the last minute.. its not real gift day.. so he is getting a few mcdonalds gift certificates and lifesaves... which I slid off the kitchen counter and into my backpack in one swift motion.. hm.. I should go shopping tonight

its rainin

DOODES!

I'm going to Santa Fe! Hahaha.. I'm being pulled up on reserve.. the orchestra needs me. Actually, Analyn can't go and I get to cos' of seniority.. apparantly Franklin isn't going so either Puja or Elena will get to... so yeah....

I'm going.. I don't want to ski.. I will more than likely severly hurt myself...