jerk off

he did it. I can't believe it. I don't know why I let him get to me. It's not like he did it to me. But.. its the principal? My greatest fear two years ago came foward today. If I was a stronger person, I get drunk, drive over there, and plow over his mailbox. I don't like alcohol. Sucks. I'd never do that sober. Still.. karma.. yeah.. karma... I hope it rapes his pride and craps in his skull. The epitomy of evil, funny how I used to think he was perfect. Ah the innocent days of being a fish. So what to do about her now, too? Her mom called yesterday, wants to get together with my mom. Last year she called around the same time for the same thing. My mom offered to get breakfest one late arrival day. No, she wanted to sleep in, her, not her mom. Opie is having a nightmare, barking in his sleep. Anyway. She hurt someone I know, any possible reconcilation is impossible now. I'm not going to ignore either anymore. I'm not going to avoid eye contact. I will look.. and I will be infinitely angry. I don't know why this pisses me off so much. It's just like.. gah.. living through someone? Yeah.. that is probably it. I think I try to live through people. I'm a leech that way. god.. the concert is tonight.. if they are together..... I'm going to throw up...