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hm.. I'm about to go to college night... I'm semi-excited.... I'm trying to decide whether I should go by myself, take a parent, and which parent would I take? Today was a long day.. I had 2 tests to look forward last periods all day..... I didn't study much for either.... but I don't think I screwed up to bad ^_^ yay... but I am concerned for many of my friends these days.. I don't know what to say and do.... I want to reach out and help .. but I am not a very comforting person.... unhappy people make me unhappy --> makes me uncomfortable --> makes me not very comforting.. I'm a pretty sucky person to get stuck on a desert island if you are feeling emotional... all I can do is make inappropriate jokes.... I felt stupid today at lunch..... I'm getting increasingly worried about steph (Im worried about you!) .. and all I did was make little jokes... I have no idea what to say... I'm not much of a physically comforting person.... I totally freeze up when people try to hug me.... like... a defense mechanism... so I'm not sure...... I'm generally worried about all of my friends..... everyone is feeling extremely stressed out for some reason or another... even I'm getting less than 6 hours of sleep every night.. I am so late running out of the house, I miss breakfast and/or dont pack my lunch.. I dont really care because im not really hungry at lunch....and I just talk through the whole thing.... I've been putting off homework till 11... my 3 hours.... so it takes forever... and I still cut stuff and put it off... but its all stress I add to myself.... all of it.... I feel awful because I know that my friend's stress isnt all or at all their fault... but I just want to tell everyone.... if you feel extra sucky... I'm going to try to keep my cell on in my room... and my mom says its ok if I want to have people campout over the weekend.... so yeah.... if you feel like super crap.... call me and I will try to talk you off the bridge, the last minute morality assignment, or evil math problem... im here, alright?